For this cycle - Closure part 2

Sometimes we try so hard to be somebody else when all we have to do is be ourselves
Local music for the win :)....

I just thought you all needed to know that I want to officially log off all internet connections during the weekdays so that i can focus of the gruelling road of studying hard... 3 more weeks to prelims and 15 weeks to the a levels is really no joke... I WANT TO BE THE BRIGHTEST STAR :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING

ps blogging may come only once a week now during the weekends when i'm free... so to all you readers out there priority counts right? :D

And the sermon went "We're all in anxiety about the future about the things of the present... why not just leave it all to the Lord..." In everything you do... in prayer its not the quantity its the intensity and sincerity in the way you pray

NO PROBLEM IS BIG IN THE EYES OF GOD

I more often than not find myself caught in the middle.. i'm the kind who would look for God much more in adversity that in everyday life...i'm resolved stop being such a weak christian... i feel like i have to something about it before it all turns grey

SCHOOL AND THAT PAINFUL ROUTINE STARTS AGAIN TOMORROW..

OFF TO FINISH THAT PILE OF WORK EVEN THOUGH ITS 2 AM :(

Love the way you lie

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, its alright because I like the way it hurts"

It's been a eventful day... woke up on a wrong note, late and dazed because of the late night i had last night... rushed to school to take a test i wasn't even prepared for... but the p's talk was inspirational.. it really woke me up to the reality of the a levels... when you think about it... i dont want to be the person who passes the exams but fail to make it to the local uni... i asked myself why i even stepped into the jc education in the first place... the only answer that was definite is i knew i wanted to enter uni and secure a future... but i didn't expect to sacrifice so much... but i know i have to like the way it hurts before i can do well... BRING ON THE PRELIMS :)

Today I treated the wussies to dinner.. THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS GUYS! :)... i enjoy going out with these bunch of people because they always make a fool of themselves and its great fun just to watch every moment... LOL... i've grown to love these friends of mine... we've been through a lot together as friends and we've come a long way... what would I do without these people in my life honestly...


You called me and wished me happy birthday, I never felt so happy these few months because i'm glad you remembered.. we talked about everything.. we had a lot to catch up on... your words motivated me more than anything ever can... you believed in me is what's important... I'll never forget the feeling i get whenever i talk to you because it still lingers.. I find myself stumbling over words and things to say, trying to appear natural in front of you... no one has ever made me feel this way... :) YOU MADE MY DAY...

what a great 19th :)

I HAD AN AWESOME MAGNIFICENT AND MEMORABLE 19TH... Thank you to all of my friends who made this so special... even a shake of the hand to wish me happy birthday,the wishes on facebook mean something to me...

I had an great and eventful birthday today!:)

In the morning i awoke to tons of smses on my phone that it hanged in the process... i thank everyone for being so sincere and sending me texts and wishing me a happy birthday... :) I really appreciate it!!... I still remb rohith sending me a text saying he had to wish me a happy birthday earlier cos he had live firing the next day... thanks everyone!

Then in school I went for barely two hours of lesson.. during which one of the break 2S23 surprised me with a cake and a song outside the library (2S23+ shuwen and shina)... i couldn't believe how great this day was turning and how the whole class was there gathered outside the library made the scene all the more heartwarming..THANK YOU 2S23 FOR MAKING THIS DAY SO SPECIAL... especially to the girls, jiaqin and jiaxin who planned this for me I can't thank you enough!...







And then econs joan's note on my back and the present for my great s18 friend peiling and not forgetting econs remedial ending early :)

Then we part of our class met again for dinner at 313@somerset.. we had great fun and great food... and of course no forgetting the squabbles between kl and nevin... then we went to the rooftop by one of the longest escalators i've ever seen in singapore to the top of orchard central... and eventually ended up heading off to giraffe where the house band dedicated a birthday song to me.. thank you jiaxin for remembering the song thats constantly on my head, billionare, and attempting to dedicate it to me though they couldn't play it (but secretly in my hear i was thinking i could! :D)...thank you everyone who came down for dinner today.. parthi, tegeoh, joel, jiaqin, jiaxin, huiyee, phoebe, denise, nadia, nevin, mok and kiat long and made it such a memorable and great end off to my birthday... :) though i don't have much picture proof, i assure you i had a blast with you guys!

And when i reached home who would've know that the package sent to me through the mailman is actually from my band buddies who gave me a shirt that read "I'm a guitar hero" and a powerful guitar tuner :)

I CANT THANK EVERYONE ENOUGH... :D

Thank the Lord for a great day and my friends who made it all the best!

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

I'm sitting here reluctant to do my gp work... though i know i have to get it done... my motivation is somewhat stifled and my brain isn't functioning too well... but i have to pull through this because its no joke ,its the a's... i find myself in this predicament not only for gp but for most of my other subjects..with God's grace i hope i can find that last push to the finish line...

I live by day now... plainly because there's so much work to do and so little time.. i constantly remind myself how close the prelims are and i shouldn't be surfing the net(or typing this blog post either)... because there really is NO time and the sense of urgency in me is surfacing.. i realized if you don't step it up now, you won't be full force coming into the a's... I feel I have to meet expectations not only of myself but others of me...

I know the post sound terribly demoralizing... but I HAVEN'T GIVEN UP THE SLIGHTEST BIT :)...


We'll be a dream cover- AJ Rafael

On a random note.. AJ Rafael always makes me want to pick up the guitar and play it like he does because its darn beautiful...this song has meaningful lyrics too.. i feel this is better than the original one, sounds more sincere and down to earth

"When the lights go out, we'll be safe and sound.. We'll take control of the world like it's all we have to hold on to.. AND WE'LL BE A DREAM.." :)

SONG OF THE DAY..

TIME FOR SOME GP ACTION

As i countdown another two(actually 1 cos a day already passed) more days to the 23rd of july.. I REALLY FEEL LIKE I'M A LITTLE OLDER AND A LOT WISER :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

SAMSUNG GALAXY S!

THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY FOR THIS SUPER PHONE... Usually, my parent's will never let me have this privelage to such a great phone like this... but on my 19th birthday they had me... thank you so much.. bye bye sony ericson hello samsung... facebook and all at my fingertips.. power to the android...

I know i'm letting my materialistic conscience peak over my shoulder but i'm so darn happy I got this phone... :) the functions and capabilities of this phone is unimaginable and the camera is a perfect 5 mega.. when i compared it with the htc at the phone shop, everything simply paled in comparison... thank you mummy and daddy for this advanced birthday gift! :)

Catechism class today was extremely insightful and though provoking.. the theory of pre selection really got me thinking about why we should worry about our future.. and since its all in God's hand we should continue to stay strong in our faith because we don't know, only He knows... the weekend passed by pretty fast and I had to say I had a good rest for the long nights i endured over the weekdays.. the weekends has passed by in a jiffy once again and i find myself facing with the monday blues all over again.. this week is going to special, i know it ;)

Our family met up in our living room just now to webcam skype our uncle and his family over in scotland.. man do they look happy and carefree over there.. free all the way till september... how great is that.. i really could use a break right now.. and i miss my cousins...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

EXCUSE THE EXPLETIVES IN THE PREVIOUS SONGS... I didn't know this was the more "vulgar" one... but still it has a great tune to it...

I remember the times where we didn't have to worry about anything and I look back and wish i was back then... even last year, it was evenly paced and rest in between was plentiful... NOW, what is my life turning into... I'm even starting to doubt i have a life.. i'm just a routine robot trying to fit into this cruel education system we inherently have to handle... i now know what everyone means when jc2 life kills you.. i'm experiencing this painful process which i try to sugar coat by telling myself i enjoy studying...

YF today was all about idols and placing God as a priority in your life... Looking back at what we discussed today.. something dawned on me that haven't struck me in a long time... I, most of the time tend to look to God only in adverse situations... I don't know what's gotten into me but I find myself drifting away from him like a driftwood floats away from the branch of the tree it came from... the tides are strong and hard as I may try, the factors in play always make it hard... but my faith and beliefs should anchor how i live my life... STAY STRONG I'VE GOT TO STAY STRONG

THIS WEEK HAS BEEN MADDENNING... One day when i was walking home down that ususal alleyway to my house.. i looked up front at the big old tree towering over the school and my house and started wondering if i continue like this, i would go bonkers or not..sometimes in shows, people vent their frustrations by screaming at the top of their lungs on the rooftop or on the seashore, i sometimes need that kind of release, because life like this is tiring...

I'M DETERMINED TO DO WELL THIS TIME ROUND... if coming back home will only lead to procrastination, staying in school no matter how tired may just help me to clock enough hours to do well for the prelims.. in just 4 more weeks, time passes way too fast...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :)

BLACKBERRY BOLD? :) This saturday, its coming soon and i can smell the smell of a new handphone!... dont mean to be so materialistic, but my sony ericson has officially died on me.. apparently, my phone number changed all of a sudden and i dont know what happened till i remb they swapped the sim card over...i need a new phone and looking at what the bb brings, i'm quite excited to get it, hopefully i will :)


Billionare- Travie McCoy feauturing Bruno Mars
Got a catchy tune and Bruno and Travie make a great combination...

This week is going to be one heck of a week... there's test after test, everytime i think of it I feel helpless to the fact that everything's coming at me like a train at full speed...

Yesterday had the three wusses coming over to my place to stay over for the world cup finals which dramatically ended in stoppage time and spain taking home the glory of the world cup for the first time... I didn't sleep a wink and the can of red bull only helped me to pay attention during history... the rest of the lessons i was only half paying attention to.. and when i got home i collapsed on my sofa till dinner time came.... thank God today ended early :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE.. WORK BECONS... GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Life is like a race, some run till the end because they want to, some stop halfway because they feel like it, some collapse from the sheer pressure because they haven't trained hard enough, some end up for many water breaks because they find comfort in sustinence... in life's race, it wouldn't be fair to cut corners to the end, because its the process that counts.... :)

I had a great week this week for some reason... I just did... Eventful because friends made it eventful.. memorable because everyone made it memorable.. sometimes you think of someone and thoughts flash through your mind about what happened in the past.. some things change though I yearn for them not to...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQIN!

I know its quite late cos its 3 days past your birthday but i hoped you had a blast! :)...

This week was particularly eventful because i finally found my motivation to do the things i had to do and get on with my dismal mid year results... how i found it was not through those motivational talks or some motivational video that captivated me... it was rather surreal.. it was through this vivid dream i had of me and my friends..it was so surreal this dream, but it woke me up from what i would become if i didn't work hard enough.. it's too long a story to type it all out here but it certainly gave me a push...

I'M HAVING EXTREMELY SURREAL DREAMS A LOT LATELY.. maybe it's because my mind's working too hard..

SUPERFREAKONOMICS!... its a fantastic book i've been reading lately not entirely about econs but more about different factual things in life and trying to explain those phenomena through statistical data and stories about people... its not like any book i've read...

My phone is dying on me... rest in peace dear phone.. i cant pick up calls, answer calls, the vibration isn't working... now i'm thinking about getting a bb or a samsung galaxy s :) hopefully by next saturday.. woooo hooo

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

TO MY COUSINS

My cousins departed on the friday last week... And this post is specially dedicated to them...

To kelly and kenneth..
I don't know if you'll see this
I know we don't have any parting gift for you but we have many parting memories
I'll miss you all at all the special events like fathers day, mothers day and birthdays
I'll miss the fly drowning
I'll miss all the games we play when we were young and all the stories we told each other
I'll miss how we when were young and naive and played with toys
I'll miss how much fun we had every time new year came around
So many times and memories we had even this blog post can't hold them in
I wish you two all the best in your studies and especially adapting at life in scotland... know that i'll always be an email or phone call(better not lah so expensive haha) away...

As you left from the airport, kenneth with his hoard of fans and kelly with her bunch of close friends.. i remembered all the fun we had in all the different countries.. I know I will miss you and your family.. and most importantly,i know i'll miss my cousins who i've known since I was such a young kid... when i see my grandma tear when you all left, the tears of regret.. i was looking back at and remembering all that we had... :)

ENJOY SCOTLAND COUSINS! :)

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Can't fight this feeling- Glee Cast
"you're a candle on the window on a cold dark winters night...
I've forgotten what I've started fighting.. I can't fight this feeling any more" :)

Listen to the lyrics of this song, it tells a meaningful story that I feel I can relate to.... Damn I can't believe I have to miss the last episode of Glee thanks to driving...

I LOVE HOLIDAYS, I LOVE SLEEP.. Now that I get to sleep, rest and recouperate.. I feel re energized and ready to fight this battle ahead of me.. 6 weeks to prelims.. its crucial.. its a must.. its do or die...

I haven't been blogging in ages not just because I'm busy with school.. its also because world cup robs me of time at night to reflect on the time in the morning.. its intense action and once in 4 years.. but why during my a level year... its hard to resist a good match...

I've learnt a lot of life lessons in jc.. i've learnt it the hard way for most.. and I found that despite the difficulties... negativity isn't the solution to anything.. it only makes you fear the future.. if its one hard and fast rule I go by.. it's to be positive in everything.. I start to believe more in myself when i entered this jc and i think it helped... in the sermon on sunday, pastor said that christians must set an example for others to follow and we have to be the most easy people to get along among our group of friends...

School just kicked into first gear last week.. and from tomorow onwards i'll have to slog my guts out in the night classes that follow.. and i'm determined to try and study in school everyday to make it count... there's no time to loose and i'm not going to loose...

I kind of like leading songs in church.. if its a God given talent that I have, music would be one of them... I like to sing in front of the crowd and get everyone to sing along with me... i rarely feel nervous on stage because I know He's there...

YOU KNOW WHAT...
EVERY TIME I BLOG
I WILL THINK OF ALL THE FUN I HAD HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND CHILLING ALONG WITH THEM ESPECIALLY LAST YEAR...
I MISS THAT THE MOST...

One more thing.. everything around me is falling apart.. first my i pod one side is malfunctioned... secondly my computer speakers went bust, now i have to use headphones.. and now my handphone, i can answer calls but i cant heard what the other person says... THIS IS TOO AMAZING...

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!