Sometimes I just wonder... if i'm too lazy to make a change or is the laziness forcing me to forsake the things i really want inside and do what i feel, is laziness overpowering me?... I mean the common test was a complete failure and I know it was a 100 percent my fault for not studying and being so relaxed in one of the toughest papers ive ever taken... I dont seem to find the urgency, drive and motivation to do things.. sure things are easier said than done and everytime i find myself caught in this trap... My aim is to go to the university and hopefully find a job i love and is passionate in for the rest of my life and lead a comfortable lifestyle... but right now, if i dont put the effort, nothing will come out... I know the principal has told us in the principals rally that retainees are slower learners but i bed to differ, we just dont have the inherent hardworking capabilities and procrastinate more than others... I better make a change at least for once in my life...

I cherish those j1 times, i cherish the sp times... the time when we all could take a back seat take a chill pill and still do well.. but times are different now... I know my parents would be dissapointed in me if i tell them my results... and for me telling myself that i'll never dissapoint my parents again... its saddening looking at the number of U's I have... the times have changed and the need to change whats bugging me for ages.. But i really in my innermost desire still want to hang out with the dearest friends I have and chill the day away... But i always ask myself, who am I doing this for... For God and for the parents i care about a lot...

GOD PLEASE GRANT ME WITH THE STRENGTH..


"We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly but the pin merely went through and away she flew."

A quote i stumbled upon on flickr that reminded me very much of you.. how you loved nature, the birds the bees and the butterflies in between... you were different, we once were different... I just hope my imagination turns to reality... won't it?

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING
-The road is long but i have to carry on in the Lord's grace and mercy-

its been too long

I have got no time at all lately to post everything that happened during the march hols but I've got to see it was full of action and activities!...

YF retreat for one was great, made a lot of new friends from the morning yf and i had great fun at the retreat playing the guitar and singing till 3am with rendell yanwei and ibob... walking and wandering serangoon gardens till 12 midnight with bubbles!... playing floorball, captains ball, one legged catching in the afternoons and actually being quite good in floorball.. :D I had a great time spending time with brothers and sisters in christ and spending time with the Lord.. I have to say I've learnt quite a bit from these short few days...

Then not long after was BBQ in church on friday night! :D... we invited a few of the morning service people over for a bit of a praise and worship session and bbq which im sure polluted the ling kwang home with our excess smoke coming out from the pits... it was great fun bbq-ing with the yfers, we've known each other for so long and everytime we get together it always is great fun... (i've just got to get better at taboo!)

Then the weekends were spent with the family, going to the national meuseum on some exhibition about "The quest for Immortality", going to the singapore flyer and witnessing the not so spectecular view of Singapore at night, staying over at swissotel because my mum has a free stay... The view was fantastic from the 56th floor i tell you, you have to be there to see how breathtaking it is... and i'm partially afraid of heights so i never dare to look down at the small ant like humans below....





these are just a few of the MANY pictures we took, im just lazy to upload the rest, 6 of the best HAHAH

Common test results are almost all out and they're extremely depressing because i screwed up BIG TIME... this is my last chance to make a difference, if i dont start now i dont know when i'll ever start.. this is a huge wakeup call for me.. i've been slacking too much and its no good excuse... you'll see the change in me and i'll emerge stronger than ever... With the help of the Lord, I will..

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Happy birthday Desmond!

HELLO WORLD!.. had a recital last saturday at Agape and try as I may to upload the song i sang, it just always fails... I'll try again again till i get it, i thought it was a pretty well arranged medly, with much help from my guitar teacher Jobb..

We had a belated birthday celebration yesterday for Desmond.. so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND~!..





These are just a few of the photos, the rest are on FB! :D

Watched Alice in wonderland with my classmates yesterday and honestly it was dissapointing.. i expected much more of it, but i guess the whimsical world was too much for us to take it all.. the illusions and delusions behind whether it was a dream or reality made it a little bit fake... i guess johnny depp was the only worth watching point this whole movie... far from the hype i got fromt the trailer.. 3/5 stars? :)


Watching another movie with the wusses later and I can't wait.. Cop out and Dear John looks good... :D but there's stil the chem file waiting for me to finish... oh well, this holiday still is looking good..can't wait for training tomorow, yf retreat on thurs and fri, yf bbq on fri night, family outing on over the weekends.. i may be too busy over this hols but this kind of business beats boredom! :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

SOMETIMES THERE ARE DAYS WHERE YOU JUST WISH TO LAZE AROUND AT HOME AND NOT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING... THESE ARE THE DAYS I LOVE...

THE CT'S ARE OOOVVEERR BOO YAH!

THE CT'S AE OVER PEOPLE! :DDDDDDD.. I don't know when i've been this greatful for a holiday/ break.. this one week's gonna be a great one i'm sure.. looking forward to the yf retreat, looking forward to going out and chilling looking forward to jamming... looking forward to next weeks champions league matches.. and i know i have to start my consistent studying, no worries, studying will be on my agenda too.. this train is running full steam into the march break! WOOO!

The CT's have been pretty kind to me.. it all started off with history and me spotting origins which is the ONLY thing i've studied for the night prior to history exams... then it was econs which was pretty alright, thank God for letting me remb all those content... chemistry was pretty much stabbing in the dark, wasnt too prepared at all.. and maths today was MAD! I thought i did enough but apparently i didnt... THANK GOD FOR THE CT'S BEING OVER :D

Have a recital this saturday at agape at 1pm! I'm excited to preform the medly i prepared and hopefully ill memeorise the chords and the lyrics by tonight.. i honestly really want to start a vlog, posting songs that i love to rendition and cover and posting them on youtube like aj rafael and andrew garcia... but i guess it'll have to wait till after the a's!... i might post one up this march hols :D

I see you too often.. whenever i get home from school.. or i'm heading out to meet my friends... heading for tuition... i see you almost 2 times a week because we live so near each other... "you said there's tons of fish in the water so the waters i will test" I dont think i ever can forget you... I dont know why and I dont even know if its God's will... my heart will always skip a beat, I dont think you'll ever know...


Man i love this guitar the shape the colour and even the sound... SOON SOON SOON, if i dont spend that much money every day eh


TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

GOOD JOB!

SRJC hit a new record today and im proud to be part of an srjc so strong and ever rising.. the a level results today brought much tension to the school and all the emotions that ran through the school today the happiness, the sadness, the helpless sighs and the tension awaiting results echoed through the walls of the school.. and to see so many bowlers making it past 80 points onto the top scorers list really made me happy, SR BOWLING FTW!... I'm extremely happy for the friends who did well and to all my friends who didnt do that well, well dont be sad, at least you tried your best... I really miss my batch that went back to collect their results today and seeing so many friends crying and with sad looks in their eyes just breaks my heart... its really the terrible truth to realise as i did in the principals dialogue in the morning that there just 38 weeks left to the a's... the emotions and thoughts that went through my mind today thinking what it would be like next year when its my turn to take the results... i really want to do well, i really do, but talk is much easier than doing it... I can't be that procrastinator anymore...

WE NEED TO CATCH UP SOON FRIENDS!

You, I've seen you for the way you are... though i still stumble for words in your presence... you've given in to a guy who doesnt deserve you at all... i dont know if im just looking at him in the wrong light... I DONT KNOW WHY...

congrats marcus on a job well done bro! :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING
-this is going to be one tough year ahead, DEAR LORD BE WITH ME-