Sunday, March 27, 2011

When life tears you apart

HELLO WORLD, I realised I haven't been blogging for a long time now and it's the time of day when I usually have the mood to blog. On sunday nights when the weekends have just ended and another new week starts to dawn on me. Life is unpredictable these days and the times when we feel like it's going to be a bad day can actually turn good.

The news headlines reek of ominous disasters and calamities, war and gore and power struggles. We in Singapore should feel extremely blessed that we are a country that doesn't get knocked around by the ebb and flow of nature nor are we one that is a ticking time bomb of political unrest waiting to explode into a full scale blood bath. It's in perilous times like these when I feel happy to be part of this safe haven in Singapore. While the world around us folds over and crumbles into pieces, our little red dot has triumphed from adversity into a force to be reckoned with. Do we really have to make mountains out of molehills? Can't we all just be satisfied with what we have and how safe this island is? I guess human nature is as such, we will never be satisfied with the things we have. My heart goes out to all the quake shaken countries of japan, myanmar and even china. Also those in the highly volatile regions that are ongoing so much strife and uncertainty. We live our lives on this sunny island without the constant fear a hurricane may rip our roof off our heads or the sound of bullets buzzing by our windows. WE SHOULD BE THANKFUL.

Many have claimed this marks the coming of the end times and that the world is coming more and more to the horrific end that is described quite graphically in the book of revalations. I for one think that it's not up to us to predict the future or up to us to know when it all ends. Though we thrive on certainty and predictability in certain ways so that we won't make future mistakes, we are not and will never be God. So let's just not get too ahead of ourselves now.

Enough of all the serious and doomsday news.

Now on to my "exciting" life! :D

I have been officially posted out of BMT and the first week was a blast. People have been awesomely friendly and the working atmosphere makes time speed by in a blast. I really feel blessed being posted here and I have nothing but gratitude for the Lord. :)

You know I'm a youtube fanatic, constantly scouring through my subscriptions for great music of funny videos.

The cave- Mumford and Sons (Jake Coco)
This week I stumbled upon this man here, Jake coco. I haven't heard mumford and sons music yet and from the way this guy covered the song, I became an instant fan.

Yes the weekends are over so quickly. I guess when they say times passes when you're having fun, it really is true. Periodically I look to check at my calender and would believe we're already almost at the end of march. This year has been amazingly quick so far and I just hope that it won't fly past without me enjoying as much of the process as I can.

On a much sentimental and random note. Recently, I've been thinking a lot lately of that special someone that I've fallen head over heels with in the past. The messages that we recently exchanged and how it would be like to have someone to love again.Ignore how naiive i am right now, my emotions are messing with my mind

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Platoon of Platoon 2

Platoon 2 it's been a great one month and come to think of it, it's sped by somehow. Now that our BMT is finally over and we're posted to new units to meet new people in a new environment, i must say i'm going to miss everyone in this great platoon and the memory we shared throughout these 4 weeks. I'll never forget and even turned sentimental on the last day when we all parted our ways and exchanged numbers while wondering what our new environment will be like. The last bus ride where we were all high and cheering our way out to yet tee mrt. Throughout these 4 weeks, i've made many dear friends and formed friendships that i'm sure will last. Though we're now in our new units, im pretty sure we'll stay in contact and we'll meet up soon. The laughter, joy and fun we had here was fun while it lasted. I leave with happy memories of a great platoon of great people from all walks of life. BETTER GET OUT OF OUR WAY NOW, BEFORE WE ROLL ALL OVER YOU!

Hopefully, new unit life will be great. I'll find out soon enough.


Pretty Eyes- Alex Goot
You and your pretty eyes keep me alive, they keep me alive. I've been listening a lot to this song from alex goot and i find that they describe how i still feel of you. Every time I face obstacles or feel troubled, your pretty eyes never fail to keep me alive and up all night. I just wish the feelings are mutual.

The weekends have been great so far. Spent the entire weekends with my family and I must say that the weekends zoom by way to fast. Now monday is looming and once again the routine starts. I only hope i'll find life better.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE!GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

My heart goes out to all in Japan. After looking at the terrible scenes unfolding in front of me on my laptop while living in the comfortable environment called Singapore, you start to realize how blessed we all are. All my heart felt prayers to everyone suffering in the crisis and even those countries affected but the after shock tsunami in the pacific basin. I just hope that everything will turn out fine and God willing this chain of incidents plaguing 2011 will come to an end and the year will turn out better for all of humanity.

When I look at the challenges faced by the other countries, I've come to realize how great our little red dot is, always unfazed and moving along the economic ladder. Though not all of us may be multi millionares, we all at least have a roof over our heads we consider home. When we look at other countries that are in turmoil either politically or naturally plagued by natural disasters, we will know and appreciate how comfortable we are and complaining will only seem naiive and ignorant. When things happen do we appreciate the things we take for granted in life, that's human nature.

These few days have got me thinking, especially the trip to the changi war memorial museum. I really felt how the POW's struggled in times of adversity and trial and really evoked a lot of emotion within me. At times we feel life is so mundane and only like to do what seems like a tradition, to complain, but when you know that someone has it worse off than you only do you keep quiet and count your blessings. If people were to appreciate how awesome life is, we wouldn't be dreading life right now would we.


Chris Medina- What Are Words
This song is one of the most heart felt songs I've ever heard, especially coming from a man like Chris Medina. These are the songs that pull your heart strings and unknowingly even though you don't find yourself touched, in your heart you'll be bawing your eyes out. Listen to the lyrics of this song and find that every single word is so beautifully crafted, simple yet have so much deep meaning.

Ask yourself this, " What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them, what are words if they're only for good times then they're gone" "they live on even when they're gone"

If you love someone, do you tell them lies and deceive them from the truth or do you mean them when you say them, those three words I LOVE YOU.

You know friends, I've learned to get over the results now and thank all my close friends for being such concerned beacons of light in my life when it seemed all was dark. I thank every single person for picking me up in my sad moments and getting me back on my feet again. Especially the Lord for His constant inspiration and grace in my life that has once again brought me out of pessimism, because I always fine comfort in the knowledge that He's there, always.

These few weeks have passed by very fast in camp and soon will be the passing out. I've made so many friends here in my platoon that I feel will last a lifetime. Met so many unexpected people in my life that i thought i never would have met. Most importantly, through these 4 weeks we all have bonded like no other and I would have to say, all this coming to a close is really making me all the more sentimental. :) platoon 2 pals, you made this journey a great one.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Saturday, March 5, 2011

the a level results, now my mine is in a mess

I have to thank all my friends for being so concerned about today and for all the well wishes from everyone. I feel that today in my eyes was disappointing results wise. I expected to do better honestly, but I have comfort in the knowledge that God has his plan for me and whatever the plan may be, I know that it's in our best interest because of His unfailing love for us.

Nerve wrecking as the final moments ticked down on the clock and the rain poured before we went over to collect our results. My heart was literally in my mouth and I was suffering badly from the case of jitters. I lit up though when I saw that our batch of JC2's did the improbable again, we beat the odds and defied all the predictions made and once again did more than expected of us. 71 points was the mean average score in my school for the graduating class of 2010 and I feel part to be among that legacy. The school has a special place in my heart and if not for the dedication of the special bunch of teachers in SRJC I wouldn't even be sure where I would be today. The time when we had to gather at the table one by one to sign our results, dampened by the fact that our CT didn't come to deliver the news made me worry. When I collected the results in my mind was calm and serene because I knew that I couldn't do anything about it no more I just had to accept it, good or bad.

Slowly pulling the paper from behind the testimonial I saw:
GP- B
Hist- D
Math- C
Chem- E
Econs- B

My mind could only flash blanks, because this was the worst case scenario for me to be in. In my mind, I couldn't face the music.

Even though this is the highest rank points I've ever attained in my JC life, thoughts of doubts surfaced today that I've never had thought of before. I was an emotional wreck right after the results.

Now come to think of it, I feel that the results I have isn't that bad at all. I now know what to do in life and the things I actually am good at. God has pointed and narrowed down the path of my life to these routes and I think help my indecisive mind decide. SO PRAISE THE LORD.

Still, I thank all those who have comforted me, taught me, studied with me, gave me advice and made life in SRJC the best 3 years of my life. :) I leave this school, awed by how it has changed me for the better.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

TOMOROW IS THE DAY!

Dear friends who are taking the A level results tomorrow it is D-Day, Judgement Day, THE DAY HAS FINALLY ARRIVED. I have not been so nervous over any result besides those that will come tomorrow ever in my life. I know I've tried my best and I know that I shouldn't be too nervous about it all, but I'm only human, anxiety is only a natural reaction to events as important as this. I always have imagined myself one day waiting my fate over a slip of paper that means the world to me, but I never thought this day could come sooner. It seemed liked yesterday when the A levels ended, now the results are out and I have to face the music. I just hope tomorrow's music will be one of great jubilant joy for our school.

I remember the day very vividly, the day when I had to go to school for the O level results. Butterfly's were flying rapidly around in that stomach of mine and the wait for the results one by one was so excruciating that it just felt like eternity.

Now that I'm older, I still feel the same way. Except that now I know that the Lord has a plan and no matter what the result I'm sure there is a purpose good or bad. Faith is all that's keeping me afloat at this juncture of time, seemingly tired but not able to get to sleep. Faith is what has me pushing on through the toughest of times during the A's and faith kept me hanging on. So now more than ever, when I can't do anything about it, I'll leave it to the hands of God

TO ALL THOSE FRIENDS, CHURCH FRIENDS, JC FRIENDS, PLATOON MATES TAKING THE A LEVEL RESULTS, I WISH EVERYONE NOTHING BUT THE BEST. WE KNOW WE'VE GIVEN IT OUR ALL, IT'S NOT IN YOUR HANDS NOW, SO HAVE A LITTLE FAITH WON'T YOU. COME WHAT MAY