the dissapointments in life just comes at the wrong time doesnt it...

i didnt expect it to turn out this way honestly....

i didnt expect this to happen at all...

all the hopes and expectations of me...

all the many things i hoped to achieve and do...

im sorry...

just really sorry....

did i even expect this to happen at all?

im sorry the teachers, im sorry my friends, im sorry my seniors, im sorry my mentor...

i know you thought all was there for the taking...

no one expected this at all...

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY... NOTHING AT ALL...

the feelings all compressed in my heart today when i saw the sheet of paper on the wall... the sinking feeling you get when you know al your effort just went downt that never ending drain... and there's no turning back... i did my best and maybe its not in Gods will... but move on i will and ill never trun back to glance at what they just let go... someone who is willing and determined to change the school for the better... someone who knows he can... someone who cares...

its unfair... i know it is... until now i still feel the aftershock of it all...i just cant let it go can I?... i just cant cos i know i dissapointed the many votes put in me... i just cant cos i know the many friends and teachers who believed...

if it were not for the supprt and encouragement of my friends i wouldnt have been here at all... if it werent for that very same support i wouldnt be standing on my own two feet and not breaking down in school... I LOVE MY FRIENDS... i know they care... =)

im sorry 1s-18 for letting you all down... but i wont give up... ill be the best there is in a CT rep...ill take the stand to be the best there is... ill never give up cos i still have you girls =).. i promise you teachers that ill work hard and strive for the best... ill be the OGL next year and you know it... maybe its by His will that i go back to bowling and show them how its done... even though the commitee is formed.. ill fight it out for the top spot... ill fight it out till i get a place in the commitee... my flame isnt down... it never will be... ill keep shining bright... brighter and stronger through this council journey so far... IM GOING TO MISS THE 21ST STUDENTS COUNCIL... I WISH YOU ALL THE VERY BEST AND CONGRATS TO ALL WHO GOT IN.. =))... THE FRIENDS I MADE IN COUNCIL... THE MEMORIES WE'VE BEEN THROUGH AS A COUNCIL... ILL NEVER EVER FORGET...

I HOPE I GET OVER THIS SOON... IT HASNT BEEN A GREAT DAY... BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON AND STRIVE TO BE THE BEST.. =) GOD BLESS PEOPLE...