I have neglected this sacred space of mine for a long time and now long cob webs are starting to stream across what once was a hobby of mine. I still crave to write and find passion in words that can express my feelings but I've found that second nature to my new found love for Youtube and Music. I frequently scour my subscriptions and find joy in covers and renditions so dynamic, it makes the song sound so new and noncommercial. And then I found out that once not quite so long ago, this was my avenue to pour out my grievances, to document my life that has passed me by so i can look at the archives in the future and smile at my colorful past. I wonder what's gotten into me that I have neglected blogger or that I've found another avenue to express myself, but the form of words to express never ceases to amaze me.

This election, as the election fever heightens, I know I am only 20 years of age and ineligible to vote in the coming elections, but I've found so much interest in the debates and passion that's come to pass that I find myself wandering into this uncharted world of politics. I never have been a fan of politics and the political scene often sighting boredom as a reason never to look at such an issue. But as the elections draw nearer I find myself captivated by the speakers both of the ruling party and opposition parties in Singapore. Singapore has come a long way since the slums of its past and broke past its status quo as a fishing village into the sprawling metropolis we see today. As far as I've known in my 20 years living on this island that we live and breathe by the rules which govern us and prevent us from a certain way of life. Though that may not have sounded much unrest and resentment before, opposition movements have now rose up like a sudden tide culminating beneath our peaceful waters attempting to rid the nation of its supposed strangle hold. This election, the fact that I'm not of age to vote gives me reason to view both opposition and the ruling government in a fair light and not with renewed vigor and anger to a certain cause. I find that tug rope is now pulled more forcefully that ever and the voters don't know which side to choose because both claim to be for the good of Singapore. I for one know that it may really be time for change in this country, that even though we may be living comfortable lives right now that complacency has robbed this country of what is truly achievable. Still I find this year's elections so compelling that if I were to be a voter especially in hotly contested areas like Aljunied i would be so torn between the lines that I wouldn't know what to do.

One thing I've found out over the past weeks, that politics brings out the side of people that no one has known and as these true colors show can the people know whose side they stand and which they feel best to lead the country.

I know this may be such a random rant about politics but I think I've just poured out the ramblings of what has been going on in my mind for the past few days. That's what blogs are for now isn't it :)

When life tears you apart

HELLO WORLD, I realised I haven't been blogging for a long time now and it's the time of day when I usually have the mood to blog. On sunday nights when the weekends have just ended and another new week starts to dawn on me. Life is unpredictable these days and the times when we feel like it's going to be a bad day can actually turn good.

The news headlines reek of ominous disasters and calamities, war and gore and power struggles. We in Singapore should feel extremely blessed that we are a country that doesn't get knocked around by the ebb and flow of nature nor are we one that is a ticking time bomb of political unrest waiting to explode into a full scale blood bath. It's in perilous times like these when I feel happy to be part of this safe haven in Singapore. While the world around us folds over and crumbles into pieces, our little red dot has triumphed from adversity into a force to be reckoned with. Do we really have to make mountains out of molehills? Can't we all just be satisfied with what we have and how safe this island is? I guess human nature is as such, we will never be satisfied with the things we have. My heart goes out to all the quake shaken countries of japan, myanmar and even china. Also those in the highly volatile regions that are ongoing so much strife and uncertainty. We live our lives on this sunny island without the constant fear a hurricane may rip our roof off our heads or the sound of bullets buzzing by our windows. WE SHOULD BE THANKFUL.

Many have claimed this marks the coming of the end times and that the world is coming more and more to the horrific end that is described quite graphically in the book of revalations. I for one think that it's not up to us to predict the future or up to us to know when it all ends. Though we thrive on certainty and predictability in certain ways so that we won't make future mistakes, we are not and will never be God. So let's just not get too ahead of ourselves now.

Enough of all the serious and doomsday news.

Now on to my "exciting" life! :D

I have been officially posted out of BMT and the first week was a blast. People have been awesomely friendly and the working atmosphere makes time speed by in a blast. I really feel blessed being posted here and I have nothing but gratitude for the Lord. :)

You know I'm a youtube fanatic, constantly scouring through my subscriptions for great music of funny videos.

The cave- Mumford and Sons (Jake Coco)
This week I stumbled upon this man here, Jake coco. I haven't heard mumford and sons music yet and from the way this guy covered the song, I became an instant fan.

Yes the weekends are over so quickly. I guess when they say times passes when you're having fun, it really is true. Periodically I look to check at my calender and would believe we're already almost at the end of march. This year has been amazingly quick so far and I just hope that it won't fly past without me enjoying as much of the process as I can.

On a much sentimental and random note. Recently, I've been thinking a lot lately of that special someone that I've fallen head over heels with in the past. The messages that we recently exchanged and how it would be like to have someone to love again.Ignore how naiive i am right now, my emotions are messing with my mind

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Platoon of Platoon 2

Platoon 2 it's been a great one month and come to think of it, it's sped by somehow. Now that our BMT is finally over and we're posted to new units to meet new people in a new environment, i must say i'm going to miss everyone in this great platoon and the memory we shared throughout these 4 weeks. I'll never forget and even turned sentimental on the last day when we all parted our ways and exchanged numbers while wondering what our new environment will be like. The last bus ride where we were all high and cheering our way out to yet tee mrt. Throughout these 4 weeks, i've made many dear friends and formed friendships that i'm sure will last. Though we're now in our new units, im pretty sure we'll stay in contact and we'll meet up soon. The laughter, joy and fun we had here was fun while it lasted. I leave with happy memories of a great platoon of great people from all walks of life. BETTER GET OUT OF OUR WAY NOW, BEFORE WE ROLL ALL OVER YOU!

Hopefully, new unit life will be great. I'll find out soon enough.


Pretty Eyes- Alex Goot
You and your pretty eyes keep me alive, they keep me alive. I've been listening a lot to this song from alex goot and i find that they describe how i still feel of you. Every time I face obstacles or feel troubled, your pretty eyes never fail to keep me alive and up all night. I just wish the feelings are mutual.

The weekends have been great so far. Spent the entire weekends with my family and I must say that the weekends zoom by way to fast. Now monday is looming and once again the routine starts. I only hope i'll find life better.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE!GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

My heart goes out to all in Japan. After looking at the terrible scenes unfolding in front of me on my laptop while living in the comfortable environment called Singapore, you start to realize how blessed we all are. All my heart felt prayers to everyone suffering in the crisis and even those countries affected but the after shock tsunami in the pacific basin. I just hope that everything will turn out fine and God willing this chain of incidents plaguing 2011 will come to an end and the year will turn out better for all of humanity.

When I look at the challenges faced by the other countries, I've come to realize how great our little red dot is, always unfazed and moving along the economic ladder. Though not all of us may be multi millionares, we all at least have a roof over our heads we consider home. When we look at other countries that are in turmoil either politically or naturally plagued by natural disasters, we will know and appreciate how comfortable we are and complaining will only seem naiive and ignorant. When things happen do we appreciate the things we take for granted in life, that's human nature.

These few days have got me thinking, especially the trip to the changi war memorial museum. I really felt how the POW's struggled in times of adversity and trial and really evoked a lot of emotion within me. At times we feel life is so mundane and only like to do what seems like a tradition, to complain, but when you know that someone has it worse off than you only do you keep quiet and count your blessings. If people were to appreciate how awesome life is, we wouldn't be dreading life right now would we.


Chris Medina- What Are Words
This song is one of the most heart felt songs I've ever heard, especially coming from a man like Chris Medina. These are the songs that pull your heart strings and unknowingly even though you don't find yourself touched, in your heart you'll be bawing your eyes out. Listen to the lyrics of this song and find that every single word is so beautifully crafted, simple yet have so much deep meaning.

Ask yourself this, " What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them, what are words if they're only for good times then they're gone" "they live on even when they're gone"

If you love someone, do you tell them lies and deceive them from the truth or do you mean them when you say them, those three words I LOVE YOU.

You know friends, I've learned to get over the results now and thank all my close friends for being such concerned beacons of light in my life when it seemed all was dark. I thank every single person for picking me up in my sad moments and getting me back on my feet again. Especially the Lord for His constant inspiration and grace in my life that has once again brought me out of pessimism, because I always fine comfort in the knowledge that He's there, always.

These few weeks have passed by very fast in camp and soon will be the passing out. I've made so many friends here in my platoon that I feel will last a lifetime. Met so many unexpected people in my life that i thought i never would have met. Most importantly, through these 4 weeks we all have bonded like no other and I would have to say, all this coming to a close is really making me all the more sentimental. :) platoon 2 pals, you made this journey a great one.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

the a level results, now my mine is in a mess

I have to thank all my friends for being so concerned about today and for all the well wishes from everyone. I feel that today in my eyes was disappointing results wise. I expected to do better honestly, but I have comfort in the knowledge that God has his plan for me and whatever the plan may be, I know that it's in our best interest because of His unfailing love for us.

Nerve wrecking as the final moments ticked down on the clock and the rain poured before we went over to collect our results. My heart was literally in my mouth and I was suffering badly from the case of jitters. I lit up though when I saw that our batch of JC2's did the improbable again, we beat the odds and defied all the predictions made and once again did more than expected of us. 71 points was the mean average score in my school for the graduating class of 2010 and I feel part to be among that legacy. The school has a special place in my heart and if not for the dedication of the special bunch of teachers in SRJC I wouldn't even be sure where I would be today. The time when we had to gather at the table one by one to sign our results, dampened by the fact that our CT didn't come to deliver the news made me worry. When I collected the results in my mind was calm and serene because I knew that I couldn't do anything about it no more I just had to accept it, good or bad.

Slowly pulling the paper from behind the testimonial I saw:
GP- B
Hist- D
Math- C
Chem- E
Econs- B

My mind could only flash blanks, because this was the worst case scenario for me to be in. In my mind, I couldn't face the music.

Even though this is the highest rank points I've ever attained in my JC life, thoughts of doubts surfaced today that I've never had thought of before. I was an emotional wreck right after the results.

Now come to think of it, I feel that the results I have isn't that bad at all. I now know what to do in life and the things I actually am good at. God has pointed and narrowed down the path of my life to these routes and I think help my indecisive mind decide. SO PRAISE THE LORD.

Still, I thank all those who have comforted me, taught me, studied with me, gave me advice and made life in SRJC the best 3 years of my life. :) I leave this school, awed by how it has changed me for the better.

TOMOROW IS THE DAY!

Dear friends who are taking the A level results tomorrow it is D-Day, Judgement Day, THE DAY HAS FINALLY ARRIVED. I have not been so nervous over any result besides those that will come tomorrow ever in my life. I know I've tried my best and I know that I shouldn't be too nervous about it all, but I'm only human, anxiety is only a natural reaction to events as important as this. I always have imagined myself one day waiting my fate over a slip of paper that means the world to me, but I never thought this day could come sooner. It seemed liked yesterday when the A levels ended, now the results are out and I have to face the music. I just hope tomorrow's music will be one of great jubilant joy for our school.

I remember the day very vividly, the day when I had to go to school for the O level results. Butterfly's were flying rapidly around in that stomach of mine and the wait for the results one by one was so excruciating that it just felt like eternity.

Now that I'm older, I still feel the same way. Except that now I know that the Lord has a plan and no matter what the result I'm sure there is a purpose good or bad. Faith is all that's keeping me afloat at this juncture of time, seemingly tired but not able to get to sleep. Faith is what has me pushing on through the toughest of times during the A's and faith kept me hanging on. So now more than ever, when I can't do anything about it, I'll leave it to the hands of God

TO ALL THOSE FRIENDS, CHURCH FRIENDS, JC FRIENDS, PLATOON MATES TAKING THE A LEVEL RESULTS, I WISH EVERYONE NOTHING BUT THE BEST. WE KNOW WE'VE GIVEN IT OUR ALL, IT'S NOT IN YOUR HANDS NOW, SO HAVE A LITTLE FAITH WON'T YOU. COME WHAT MAY

I write not for the fame or for the recognition, I write because I'm passionate about it.

ITS ALREADY FEBRUARY THE 27TH! It's an unearthly time of morning to blog but I slept earlier and I feel wide awake now to do a post. :)

Life with literally no hair is SURREAL. Yes, I look at myself differently in the mirror now and it has taken a while to get used to the lack of hair. The good thing about so little hair is the little maintainance that you have to go through with it and the time you spend in the bathroom naturally becomes less. Army life has been awesome so far, only because I'm a PES E recruit and everything seems fine and dandy. Week one in army seemed to pass by very quickly and I think with God's grace before I know it, so will the rest of the week till the end of BMT. Reporting to Yew Tee before so early in the morning means my sleeping habits of old have to change, but it seems I've finally adapted to the reality of this changing habit. It's interesting to say the least interacting with people in the platoon because we come from all sorts of different backgrounds and characters and being recruits in pes e, many different ailments, so it's a sheer test of your human interaction skills. I'm quite happy being in platoon 2 now, the people there try their best to be friendly and not go overboard with the noise making when it comes to times when we have to be serious, you can't ask for more than that. THANK GOD FOR BLESSING ME THROUGH THIS WEEK!

When you have to count your blessings in life, most people fall short and actually turn to the other side of the coin. My psychology in life is always to stay optimistic in all circumstances and while I may be back at home everyday seeing my family and having a good sleep on my bed, many in tekong are at their wits end waking up at 4 am in uncomfortable beds and doing pushups like it's breathing fresh air, I know I'm having a better life.

A LEVEL RESULTS ARE OUT NEXT FRIDAY! :O SO FAST?! Word has been going around for so long now that the a level results are out next week and I have been thinking about it for the whole week in times of stoning and free time. One slip of paper that could determine my whole future is probably the most nerve wrecking thing that I've ever received my entire life, it really means everything.

I thank all my friends in church who have kept me in their prayers constantly and I've been well for the whole week so thank God for keeping me safe. Life has been nothing short of great, so remember that while you may think you're suffering, someone has it a lot worse off than you do.

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!

MANU 4-0, POWER PACK :D

Sometimes even when friendships are strained, you still missed what used to be, even though you know it may never be that way again. I had a great time with you guys today, Petrina Tan, Tegoeh Putra and Joel Chia. Thanks for spending the last few days on life on earth with some hair to swipe away from my face :). I enjoy company I must say, I'm the kind who thinks chilling with friends is a hobby and am passionate about it every time. I have this little theory and belief of mind that reeks of optimism and good will, I always think that making friends is much better than making enemies, so as far as I can I'm a 100 percent friendly all the time. Today was an awesome day because I got to meet you guys to talk and have a nice meal, before going to watch an great movie, one of the rare few chinese movies i actually watch on the big screen called WHAT WOMEN WANT. The purpose of face time as we call it is that everyone can get to know each other on an even deeper level and honestly i think it's true. Think about it, with the friends you merely say hi to online and not bother meeting up with, is your relationship with them merely surface and never grows into friendship so deep that you can go beyond a certain invisible line drawn out. That's why I think highly of chilling with friends, simple as it may be.

The movie WHAT ALL WOMEN WANT brings about an aspect of life that we all ignore and especially us being guys. We find ourselves unknown to the thoughts and ways of the woman psyche that we even think of it as another world altogether. It's funny to see the lead finally realizing how women think and the trouble he gets into all together. It was a brilliantly thought of film and it sure cracked me up. I think this is one worth watching,even if the seats are in the front row. :)

Recently, I've been watching the big bang theory and I find it to be one of the funniest shows I've ever watched. The story develops around a group of nerds that accidentally stumble upon their gorgeous neighbor who works at the cheese cake factory and how their lives intersect.The way their lives cross paths is interesting if you ever wondered how scientists lived their lives. YOU ALL SHOULD CHECK THIS OUT!



TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :D

Tranquiltity in the water

While swimming today in the hot afternoon sun after a nice workout at the gym, everything seems to be tranquil and calming about the water. When you look through the pair of goggles you have on while swimming into the deep pool floor, you feel a sort of calming effect that relaxes the tense muscles. I like it when I go to the pool and it's empty, devoid of anyone interrupting your swim that afternoon, though I know soon, I will be less able to enjoy such things anymore doing whatever I want, whenever I want. Still, I take comfort in the knowledge and enjoy every moment of "freedom" as I know it.

I don't know if you've seen the links that have been going around about someone's blog post of the memories of the 1990's and if you were in school during that time just like me, it'll bring back so many fantastic memories that will make you nod in agreement.
http://jeremysng.wordpress.com/2010/05/08/some-things-i-remember-from-the-90s/
Just copy and past to the browser using the above link.
Reading this brings back so many memories of the past. Remember how we used little mugs and tooth brushes in pri school to brush our teeth before and after recess? Remember how we used to deface our pets notebook? Remember playing soccer with a tennis ball? We have so much fond memories of the past in primary school and coming from a neighbourhood school those were much wilder and vivid than you could ever imagine. Now, I wonder how all the primary school buddies are in their life now, I haven't caught up with them for ages. I used to be obsessed with WWE cards and little digimons that leveled up. The child in me still has a place for all these memories. :)

TIME IS PASSING FAST, WAY TOO FAST! It's already wednesday heading into thursday, just a few days away from when army beckons and another phase of life begins. I would be a liar if I said that I'm not too nervous about it all, the fact is, I'm extremely nervous when the double digit days turn into single digit days. I don't know if its a new environment anxiety or the about to loose all my hair anxiety, but there is some anxiety hidden in there somewhere that has started to surface.

These few days have been mostly me time, spending it with myself at home, in bed and having a great time slacking. I have to enjoy all this while it lasts right :/. I've also grown to the now good habit of exercising hoping this all isn't just a one off thing and may it last a while longer.

Just yesterday I had to attend a company dinner which I worked for only a few weeks back and it was pretty awesome to say the least. To see all the people I have become friends with and to be forced to sing a song on the karoake rounds made it one night hard to forget. I would just like think of these nights as uncovering the hidden talents in the office i didn't know existed and though my table had the presence of all the youngsters, we just couldn't compete with the surprising high octane madness from the older more experienced tables.

One colleage of mine asked me this question that had my mind in knots. "So what is the most exciting thing you've done all day", I only could muster the honest reply of, nothing much actually, I've been lazing at home all day. Yes, life is mundane though I wouldn't call it boring, truth be told, I think I might be wasting my life away at home. But I have never felt happier for some reason to live this life, doing whatever I want, whenever I want, I guess we all have this inner slacker in us ready to run rampant in our lives. Or is it just me.

I'm still in the process of gathering all the pictures that has been most significant in jc life and I finally realized that the most exciting period of my jc life was in 2009 when I was with the class of 1s26. So many things happened that I feel could have been made into a movie, yes the drama in our class is so intense. Allegiances formed and split up before you know it and the fact that our class had so many of those allegiances, it started to look like the face of mars with all its rocky crevices,still I had the time of my life with the clique I was in. Now, times have changed and I just wish it were for the better.

MY HAPPENING CNY! :D















I HAD AN AWESOME CNY, I know it's already way way past cny, but I finally got down to uploading it up for everyone. I apologise for some of the skewed photos that you have to turn your head sideways to look at them.

TILL ANOTHER DAY, the countdown has officially begun.

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!:D