Lets go back to a place much simpler than this

Where got time?

2011-09-29T22:17:00.004+08:00

I miss writing and honestly I miss this space I once used so often to rant about things in life, though insignificant to other meant so much to me. Once in a while i get the urge to write and i jot them down in a notebook of random thoughts and ramblings, but often than not I don't find a space as conducive as this to pour out my thoughts.

I'm sure many will say that blogging is a has-been celebrity of the past and twitter is now the new in thing to rant your thoughts. Honestly, the 200 word limit is hindering and I don't like to put my thoughts in summary. I simply don't have the habit or find the joy in posting little thoughts onto my wall when I feel like it, because honestly I don't think I ever have felt like it. I always felt that this was a great space and I go to it much less often only because there is so much more in my life.

I've been in ns for 7 months now and time seems to fly by so fast. I remember it like it was yesterday that I first embarked on this unknown phase in my life, and here I am already witnessing a quarter of it pass me by. Loads have happened in my life over these months and I've learned a lot through it all. Coping with workload of studying and other commitments have really put a strain both mentally and physically on me but i guess we all just have to learn to hang in there and cope. You know what they all say, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

Time is such an abstract art, like a sudden torrential storm on a sunny day, you'll never know what to expect. You may think you know what is in store for your in the future, even the near future. But life likes to spring surprises on you to keep you on your feet, i found. And in trying to get a grip on life, more often than not we loose our inner senses and our sanity in trying to catch up.

I don't know about everyone out there, but while in a different phase in life, a lot of things tend to fade away and sadly friendships start to erode. But some friends that mean most to you you'll try to hang on to and not let them get washed away with the sweeping changes in your life. I miss the times in jc where i was always surrounded by people that genuinely cared for me and i for them. In life's road trip you tend to loose people along the way, but these bunch of great friends have stuck and we still meet up, albeit only once in a while to catch up. I'm honored to have such great friends that keep up the effort and sincerely, these are the friends i would trust everything I have with.

Then there are friends which you get to know in a phase in your life and just fade into the background because you weren't close, or, not one of you bothered to make the effort to try. These are friends that often you find joy on the surface hanging out with them, but beyond that, you don't know them all too well. I'm saddened when relationships fade and those that once were close to you almost suddenly turned acquaintances.

Now I'm in a phase in life where I've made many great new friends, some better than the others. Whether these relationships can stand the test of time is another matter altogether. Only time will tell.

In one blog post I've poured all that was lingering in my mind these past few days. Thoughts that I wanted to share and life experiences that left a deep impression on my life.

An update on my not so happening life:
I've taken classes part time, a diploma in law (it really is difficult)and am still putting my braincells to work.

Life has been pretty good to me so far thank God

I have an awesome ukele (thank you mum and dad)

I'm going to UK at the end of october!! woohoo :D

Attempts to live healthy have been pretty successful, I'm running two times a week to train for the nike human race in october and the singapore stand chart marathon in december

The heart is a stubborn creature

2011-07-09T18:22:00.003+08:00

As humans, we know that when we do something wrong, our conscience pricks us like a needle and we know that we need to stop only because we care for ourselves and our personal well being. But honestly, deep within our hearts we know we don't know our limits, neither will we ever know our limits when it comes to things we so deeply want in our lives that such sacrifices seem almost logical. On hindsight, we may come to deeply regret the things we do in life, but honestly, don't you feel better making these mistakes and learning from them or constantly keeping so cautiously close to yourself and wary that life is not meaningful anymore. It's a cruel give and take and reality bites but all we got to do is to move on. All we have in us is a will so strong, that even when we step out of our comfort zones we still can survive. Even when you think life is down and in the dumps, keeping a half glass full attitude makes like all the more worthwhile.

For those who feel down in the dumps at times and don't know what to do in life.

I've decided to turn to my blog today just because I chanced upon it and read my thoughts in the past. Most of it bleak and 'emo' as they call it in modern teen lingo. I found myself wallowing in self pity at the things that have passed and didn't go as I like and not dwelling instead on the blessings that God has granted me with. I feel like a complacent little brat. Times have changed and my attitude to everything has changed for the better. I'm living the life more ever since and I have to thank christianity in most part of this process. I honestly don't ever think I was christian enough in my hay days, though I'm only 20, and hay days seem like im 40. The past seems distant and moving on and closure is what i need.

Moving on from such reflection to pure joy that i'm trying to live my life to the fullest.

David Choi- By My Side

Which brings me to this sweet video that Wong fu productions just made together with the brilliant david choi. He's such a brilliant musician and such a lyrical genius. It made me reminisce about so many things, but the desire and love exubarated here reminded me so much of how i used to feel for a certain someone. (zulu alert in that vid :D)

Like a flying helium balloon, I didn't know you would catch me in flight and bring me back down to earth.

Till another day,

I'm starting to love writing again.

2011-06-21T23:40:00.002+08:00

I haven't posted in what seems like forever!

It's already June the 21st and time has been speeding by like a bullet train. A lot of things in my life have changed over the past month and life is heading in a new exciting direction, I can only pray that God will be with me every step of the way.

Today, with what I can best express myself, in words, i'm back ranting about the happenings of life.

I JUST CAME BACK FROM DAVID CHOI'S CONCERT!

Yes, the one and only david choi.

I haven't been to many concerts lately, but I have to say it was well worth the money. The songs that he sung today never fail to make me wonder time and again why he's still not as recognized as he's supposed to be. Maybe he hit a heart string(or two) on a few of the songs he sang but the texture in his songs that he composed and the unique tone to his voice really makes him stand out among the millions of artists on youtube. He has such a gentle, humorous and friendly disposition and even a person who used to sit on the fence captivated by some songs was deeply entrenched into his whole list of songs. I leave the concert amazed by the talent of this man, and how youtube has made him such a hit even on a tiny island like singapore.

Below are a few of my personal favourites:

That Girl- David Choi

The Way You Are- David Choi and Kinna Grannis

By My Side- David Choi

I know that it's hard to think that a youtube artist and not a multi platinum artist would be on my list of favorites in my ipod playlist. But honestly, he sings from the heart and how many artists today have sunk into the depths of composing around beats that have effect on people and thinking of how to get into the top of radio charts. Music has to come from the heart and i think he is every bit as good as anyone out there.

After today, I can't be more sure than I am now.

Seriously, if you still don't know who he is, please check the man out :)

2011-05-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

I have neglected this sacred space of mine for a long time and now long cob webs are starting to stream across what once was a hobby of mine. I still crave to write and find passion in words that can express my feelings but I've found that second nature to my new found love for Youtube and Music. I frequently scour my subscriptions and find joy in covers and renditions so dynamic, it makes the song sound so new and noncommercial. And then I found out that once not quite so long ago, this was my avenue to pour out my grievances, to document my life that has passed me by so i can look at the archives in the future and smile at my colorful past. I wonder what's gotten into me that I have neglected blogger or that I've found another avenue to express myself, but the form of words to express never ceases to amaze me.

This election, as the election fever heightens, I know I am only 20 years of age and ineligible to vote in the coming elections, but I've found so much interest in the debates and passion that's come to pass that I find myself wandering into this uncharted world of politics. I never have been a fan of politics and the political scene often sighting boredom as a reason never to look at such an issue. But as the elections draw nearer I find myself captivated by the speakers both of the ruling party and opposition parties in Singapore. Singapore has come a long way since the slums of its past and broke past its status quo as a fishing village into the sprawling metropolis we see today. As far as I've known in my 20 years living on this island that we live and breathe by the rules which govern us and prevent us from a certain way of life. Though that may not have sounded much unrest and resentment before, opposition movements have now rose up like a sudden tide culminating beneath our peaceful waters attempting to rid the nation of its supposed strangle hold. This election, the fact that I'm not of age to vote gives me reason to view both opposition and the ruling government in a fair light and not with renewed vigor and anger to a certain cause. I find that tug rope is now pulled more forcefully that ever and the voters don't know which side to choose because both claim to be for the good of Singapore. I for one know that it may really be time for change in this country, that even though we may be living comfortable lives right now that complacency has robbed this country of what is truly achievable. Still I find this year's elections so compelling that if I were to be a voter especially in hotly contested areas like Aljunied i would be so torn between the lines that I wouldn't know what to do.

One thing I've found out over the past weeks, that politics brings out the side of people that no one has known and as these true colors show can the people know whose side they stand and which they feel best to lead the country.

I know this may be such a random rant about politics but I think I've just poured out the ramblings of what has been going on in my mind for the past few days. That's what blogs are for now isn't it :)

When life tears you apart

2011-03-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD, I realised I haven't been blogging for a long time now and it's the time of day when I usually have the mood to blog. On sunday nights when the weekends have just ended and another new week starts to dawn on me. Life is unpredictable these days and the times when we feel like it's going to be a bad day can actually turn good.

The news headlines reek of ominous disasters and calamities, war and gore and power struggles. We in Singapore should feel extremely blessed that we are a country that doesn't get knocked around by the ebb and flow of nature nor are we one that is a ticking time bomb of political unrest waiting to explode into a full scale blood bath. It's in perilous times like these when I feel happy to be part of this safe haven in Singapore. While the world around us folds over and crumbles into pieces, our little red dot has triumphed from adversity into a force to be reckoned with. Do we really have to make mountains out of molehills? Can't we all just be satisfied with what we have and how safe this island is? I guess human nature is as such, we will never be satisfied with the things we have. My heart goes out to all the quake shaken countries of japan, myanmar and even china. Also those in the highly volatile regions that are ongoing so much strife and uncertainty. We live our lives on this sunny island without the constant fear a hurricane may rip our roof off our heads or the sound of bullets buzzing by our windows. WE SHOULD BE THANKFUL.

Many have claimed this marks the coming of the end times and that the world is coming more and more to the horrific end that is described quite graphically in the book of revalations. I for one think that it's not up to us to predict the future or up to us to know when it all ends. Though we thrive on certainty and predictability in certain ways so that we won't make future mistakes, we are not and will never be God. So let's just not get too ahead of ourselves now.

Enough of all the serious and doomsday news.

Now on to my "exciting" life! :D

I have been officially posted out of BMT and the first week was a blast. People have been awesomely friendly and the working atmosphere makes time speed by in a blast. I really feel blessed being posted here and I have nothing but gratitude for the Lord. :)

You know I'm a youtube fanatic, constantly scouring through my subscriptions for great music of funny videos.

The cave- Mumford and Sons (Jake Coco)
This week I stumbled upon this man here, Jake coco. I haven't heard mumford and sons music yet and from the way this guy covered the song, I became an instant fan.

Yes the weekends are over so quickly. I guess when they say times passes when you're having fun, it really is true. Periodically I look to check at my calender and would believe we're already almost at the end of march. This year has been amazingly quick so far and I just hope that it won't fly past without me enjoying as much of the process as I can.

On a much sentimental and random note. Recently, I've been thinking a lot lately of that special someone that I've fallen head over heels with in the past. The messages that we recently exchanged and how it would be like to have someone to love again.Ignore how naiive i am right now, my emotions are messing with my mind

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Platoon of Platoon 2

2011-03-20T14:55:00.003+08:00

Platoon 2 it's been a great one month and come to think of it, it's sped by somehow. Now that our BMT is finally over and we're posted to new units to meet new people in a new environment, i must say i'm going to miss everyone in this great platoon and the memory we shared throughout these 4 weeks. I'll never forget and even turned sentimental on the last day when we all parted our ways and exchanged numbers while wondering what our new environment will be like. The last bus ride where we were all high and cheering our way out to yet tee mrt. Throughout these 4 weeks, i've made many dear friends and formed friendships that i'm sure will last. Though we're now in our new units, im pretty sure we'll stay in contact and we'll meet up soon. The laughter, joy and fun we had here was fun while it lasted. I leave with happy memories of a great platoon of great people from all walks of life. BETTER GET OUT OF OUR WAY NOW, BEFORE WE ROLL ALL OVER YOU!

Hopefully, new unit life will be great. I'll find out soon enough.

Pretty Eyes- Alex Goot
You and your pretty eyes keep me alive, they keep me alive. I've been listening a lot to this song from alex goot and i find that they describe how i still feel of you. Every time I face obstacles or feel troubled, your pretty eyes never fail to keep me alive and up all night. I just wish the feelings are mutual.

The weekends have been great so far. Spent the entire weekends with my family and I must say that the weekends zoom by way to fast. Now monday is looming and once again the routine starts. I only hope i'll find life better.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE!GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-03-12T00:07:00.003+08:00

My heart goes out to all in Japan. After looking at the terrible scenes unfolding in front of me on my laptop while living in the comfortable environment called Singapore, you start to realize how blessed we all are. All my heart felt prayers to everyone suffering in the crisis and even those countries affected but the after shock tsunami in the pacific basin. I just hope that everything will turn out fine and God willing this chain of incidents plaguing 2011 will come to an end and the year will turn out better for all of humanity.

When I look at the challenges faced by the other countries, I've come to realize how great our little red dot is, always unfazed and moving along the economic ladder. Though not all of us may be multi millionares, we all at least have a roof over our heads we consider home. When we look at other countries that are in turmoil either politically or naturally plagued by natural disasters, we will know and appreciate how comfortable we are and complaining will only seem naiive and ignorant. When things happen do we appreciate the things we take for granted in life, that's human nature.

These few days have got me thinking, especially the trip to the changi war memorial museum. I really felt how the POW's struggled in times of adversity and trial and really evoked a lot of emotion within me. At times we feel life is so mundane and only like to do what seems like a tradition, to complain, but when you know that someone has it worse off than you only do you keep quiet and count your blessings. If people were to appreciate how awesome life is, we wouldn't be dreading life right now would we.

Chris Medina- What Are Words
This song is one of the most heart felt songs I've ever heard, especially coming from a man like Chris Medina. These are the songs that pull your heart strings and unknowingly even though you don't find yourself touched, in your heart you'll be bawing your eyes out. Listen to the lyrics of this song and find that every single word is so beautifully crafted, simple yet have so much deep meaning.

Ask yourself this, " What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them, what are words if they're only for good times then they're gone" "they live on even when they're gone"

If you love someone, do you tell them lies and deceive them from the truth or do you mean them when you say them, those three words I LOVE YOU.

You know friends, I've learned to get over the results now and thank all my close friends for being such concerned beacons of light in my life when it seemed all was dark. I thank every single person for picking me up in my sad moments and getting me back on my feet again. Especially the Lord for His constant inspiration and grace in my life that has once again brought me out of pessimism, because I always fine comfort in the knowledge that He's there, always.

These few weeks have passed by very fast in camp and soon will be the passing out. I've made so many friends here in my platoon that I feel will last a lifetime. Met so many unexpected people in my life that i thought i never would have met. Most importantly, through these 4 weeks we all have bonded like no other and I would have to say, all this coming to a close is really making me all the more sentimental. :) platoon 2 pals, you made this journey a great one.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

the a level results, now my mine is in a mess

2011-03-05T00:41:00.003+08:00

I have to thank all my friends for being so concerned about today and for all the well wishes from everyone. I feel that today in my eyes was disappointing results wise. I expected to do better honestly, but I have comfort in the knowledge that God has his plan for me and whatever the plan may be, I know that it's in our best interest because of His unfailing love for us.

Nerve wrecking as the final moments ticked down on the clock and the rain poured before we went over to collect our results. My heart was literally in my mouth and I was suffering badly from the case of jitters. I lit up though when I saw that our batch of JC2's did the improbable again, we beat the odds and defied all the predictions made and once again did more than expected of us. 71 points was the mean average score in my school for the graduating class of 2010 and I feel part to be among that legacy. The school has a special place in my heart and if not for the dedication of the special bunch of teachers in SRJC I wouldn't even be sure where I would be today. The time when we had to gather at the table one by one to sign our results, dampened by the fact that our CT didn't come to deliver the news made me worry. When I collected the results in my mind was calm and serene because I knew that I couldn't do anything about it no more I just had to accept it, good or bad.

Slowly pulling the paper from behind the testimonial I saw:
GP- B
Hist- D
Math- C
Chem- E
Econs- B

My mind could only flash blanks, because this was the worst case scenario for me to be in. In my mind, I couldn't face the music.

Even though this is the highest rank points I've ever attained in my JC life, thoughts of doubts surfaced today that I've never had thought of before. I was an emotional wreck right after the results.

Now come to think of it, I feel that the results I have isn't that bad at all. I now know what to do in life and the things I actually am good at. God has pointed and narrowed down the path of my life to these routes and I think help my indecisive mind decide. SO PRAISE THE LORD.

Still, I thank all those who have comforted me, taught me, studied with me, gave me advice and made life in SRJC the best 3 years of my life. :) I leave this school, awed by how it has changed me for the better.

TOMOROW IS THE DAY!

2011-03-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

Dear friends who are taking the A level results tomorrow it is D-Day, Judgement Day, THE DAY HAS FINALLY ARRIVED. I have not been so nervous over any result besides those that will come tomorrow ever in my life. I know I've tried my best and I know that I shouldn't be too nervous about it all, but I'm only human, anxiety is only a natural reaction to events as important as this. I always have imagined myself one day waiting my fate over a slip of paper that means the world to me, but I never thought this day could come sooner. It seemed liked yesterday when the A levels ended, now the results are out and I have to face the music. I just hope tomorrow's music will be one of great jubilant joy for our school.

I remember the day very vividly, the day when I had to go to school for the O level results. Butterfly's were flying rapidly around in that stomach of mine and the wait for the results one by one was so excruciating that it just felt like eternity.

Now that I'm older, I still feel the same way. Except that now I know that the Lord has a plan and no matter what the result I'm sure there is a purpose good or bad. Faith is all that's keeping me afloat at this juncture of time, seemingly tired but not able to get to sleep. Faith is what has me pushing on through the toughest of times during the A's and faith kept me hanging on. So now more than ever, when I can't do anything about it, I'll leave it to the hands of God

TO ALL THOSE FRIENDS, CHURCH FRIENDS, JC FRIENDS, PLATOON MATES TAKING THE A LEVEL RESULTS, I WISH EVERYONE NOTHING BUT THE BEST. WE KNOW WE'VE GIVEN IT OUR ALL, IT'S NOT IN YOUR HANDS NOW, SO HAVE A LITTLE FAITH WON'T YOU. COME WHAT MAY

2011-02-27T02:54:00.002+08:00

I write not for the fame or for the recognition, I write because I'm passionate about it.

ITS ALREADY FEBRUARY THE 27TH! It's an unearthly time of morning to blog but I slept earlier and I feel wide awake now to do a post. :)

Life with literally no hair is SURREAL. Yes, I look at myself differently in the mirror now and it has taken a while to get used to the lack of hair. The good thing about so little hair is the little maintainance that you have to go through with it and the time you spend in the bathroom naturally becomes less. Army life has been awesome so far, only because I'm a PES E recruit and everything seems fine and dandy. Week one in army seemed to pass by very quickly and I think with God's grace before I know it, so will the rest of the week till the end of BMT. Reporting to Yew Tee before so early in the morning means my sleeping habits of old have to change, but it seems I've finally adapted to the reality of this changing habit. It's interesting to say the least interacting with people in the platoon because we come from all sorts of different backgrounds and characters and being recruits in pes e, many different ailments, so it's a sheer test of your human interaction skills. I'm quite happy being in platoon 2 now, the people there try their best to be friendly and not go overboard with the noise making when it comes to times when we have to be serious, you can't ask for more than that. THANK GOD FOR BLESSING ME THROUGH THIS WEEK!

When you have to count your blessings in life, most people fall short and actually turn to the other side of the coin. My psychology in life is always to stay optimistic in all circumstances and while I may be back at home everyday seeing my family and having a good sleep on my bed, many in tekong are at their wits end waking up at 4 am in uncomfortable beds and doing pushups like it's breathing fresh air, I know I'm having a better life.

A LEVEL RESULTS ARE OUT NEXT FRIDAY! :O SO FAST?! Word has been going around for so long now that the a level results are out next week and I have been thinking about it for the whole week in times of stoning and free time. One slip of paper that could determine my whole future is probably the most nerve wrecking thing that I've ever received my entire life, it really means everything.

I thank all my friends in church who have kept me in their prayers constantly and I've been well for the whole week so thank God for keeping me safe. Life has been nothing short of great, so remember that while you may think you're suffering, someone has it a lot worse off than you do.

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!

MANU 4-0, POWER PACK :D

2011-02-20T00:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes even when friendships are strained, you still missed what used to be, even though you know it may never be that way again. I had a great time with you guys today, Petrina Tan, Tegoeh Putra and Joel Chia. Thanks for spending the last few days on life on earth with some hair to swipe away from my face :). I enjoy company I must say, I'm the kind who thinks chilling with friends is a hobby and am passionate about it every time. I have this little theory and belief of mind that reeks of optimism and good will, I always think that making friends is much better than making enemies, so as far as I can I'm a 100 percent friendly all the time. Today was an awesome day because I got to meet you guys to talk and have a nice meal, before going to watch an great movie, one of the rare few chinese movies i actually watch on the big screen called WHAT WOMEN WANT. The purpose of face time as we call it is that everyone can get to know each other on an even deeper level and honestly i think it's true. Think about it, with the friends you merely say hi to online and not bother meeting up with, is your relationship with them merely surface and never grows into friendship so deep that you can go beyond a certain invisible line drawn out. That's why I think highly of chilling with friends, simple as it may be.

The movie WHAT ALL WOMEN WANT brings about an aspect of life that we all ignore and especially us being guys. We find ourselves unknown to the thoughts and ways of the woman psyche that we even think of it as another world altogether. It's funny to see the lead finally realizing how women think and the trouble he gets into all together. It was a brilliantly thought of film and it sure cracked me up. I think this is one worth watching,even if the seats are in the front row. :)

Recently, I've been watching the big bang theory and I find it to be one of the funniest shows I've ever watched. The story develops around a group of nerds that accidentally stumble upon their gorgeous neighbor who works at the cheese cake factory and how their lives intersect.The way their lives cross paths is interesting if you ever wondered how scientists lived their lives. YOU ALL SHOULD CHECK THIS OUT!

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :D

Tranquiltity in the water

2011-02-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

While swimming today in the hot afternoon sun after a nice workout at the gym, everything seems to be tranquil and calming about the water. When you look through the pair of goggles you have on while swimming into the deep pool floor, you feel a sort of calming effect that relaxes the tense muscles. I like it when I go to the pool and it's empty, devoid of anyone interrupting your swim that afternoon, though I know soon, I will be less able to enjoy such things anymore doing whatever I want, whenever I want. Still, I take comfort in the knowledge and enjoy every moment of "freedom" as I know it.

I don't know if you've seen the links that have been going around about someone's blog post of the memories of the 1990's and if you were in school during that time just like me, it'll bring back so many fantastic memories that will make you nod in agreement.
http://jeremysng.wordpress.com/2010/05/08/some-things-i-remember-from-the-90s/
Just copy and past to the browser using the above link.
Reading this brings back so many memories of the past. Remember how we used little mugs and tooth brushes in pri school to brush our teeth before and after recess? Remember how we used to deface our pets notebook? Remember playing soccer with a tennis ball? We have so much fond memories of the past in primary school and coming from a neighbourhood school those were much wilder and vivid than you could ever imagine. Now, I wonder how all the primary school buddies are in their life now, I haven't caught up with them for ages. I used to be obsessed with WWE cards and little digimons that leveled up. The child in me still has a place for all these memories. :)

2011-02-16T23:41:00.005+08:00

TIME IS PASSING FAST, WAY TOO FAST! It's already wednesday heading into thursday, just a few days away from when army beckons and another phase of life begins. I would be a liar if I said that I'm not too nervous about it all, the fact is, I'm extremely nervous when the double digit days turn into single digit days. I don't know if its a new environment anxiety or the about to loose all my hair anxiety, but there is some anxiety hidden in there somewhere that has started to surface.

These few days have been mostly me time, spending it with myself at home, in bed and having a great time slacking. I have to enjoy all this while it lasts right :/. I've also grown to the now good habit of exercising hoping this all isn't just a one off thing and may it last a while longer.

Just yesterday I had to attend a company dinner which I worked for only a few weeks back and it was pretty awesome to say the least. To see all the people I have become friends with and to be forced to sing a song on the karoake rounds made it one night hard to forget. I would just like think of these nights as uncovering the hidden talents in the office i didn't know existed and though my table had the presence of all the youngsters, we just couldn't compete with the surprising high octane madness from the older more experienced tables.

One colleage of mine asked me this question that had my mind in knots. "So what is the most exciting thing you've done all day", I only could muster the honest reply of, nothing much actually, I've been lazing at home all day. Yes, life is mundane though I wouldn't call it boring, truth be told, I think I might be wasting my life away at home. But I have never felt happier for some reason to live this life, doing whatever I want, whenever I want, I guess we all have this inner slacker in us ready to run rampant in our lives. Or is it just me.

I'm still in the process of gathering all the pictures that has been most significant in jc life and I finally realized that the most exciting period of my jc life was in 2009 when I was with the class of 1s26. So many things happened that I feel could have been made into a movie, yes the drama in our class is so intense. Allegiances formed and split up before you know it and the fact that our class had so many of those allegiances, it started to look like the face of mars with all its rocky crevices,still I had the time of my life with the clique I was in. Now, times have changed and I just wish it were for the better.

MY HAPPENING CNY! :D

I HAD AN AWESOME CNY, I know it's already way way past cny, but I finally got down to uploading it up for everyone. I apologise for some of the skewed photos that you have to turn your head sideways to look at them.

TILL ANOTHER DAY, the countdown has officially begun.

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!:D

2011-02-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

AJ Rafael- We Could Happen

"I've been thinking about you lately, maybe you could save me from this crazy world we live in." :)

HAPPY VALENTINES TO ALL THE LOVE BIRDS OUT THERE! :D

On this valentines day, don't just shower all your attention on that special someone, remember those who love you too, like your family and friends. So on this valentines day, spread the love cos' everyone is worth it.

Life realistically isn't as pretty as it seems

2011-02-13T22:16:00.003+08:00

Many things have happened over these past two days and honestly I don't what to expect of this world anymore. After watching THE SOCIAL NETWORK, I now understand the difficulties of fame and fortune and how relationships get stretched beyond measure. It's quite deserving of so much praise this movie about what we now know as something we can't live without, facebook and it's humble beginnings. The fact that so many facets of life are now materialistic is turning the world into a big fish eat small fish catastrophe. Also these few days, I've known of news that really shock me and pin points to this fact that money is the apple of everyone's eye. That's where the separation between those who believe in God and those who don't. I know that Aethiesm is becoming much of a growing trend lately especially among the young, but the fact is, most people who subscribe to such non belief have no idea what it entails. The total shunning of God is like turning away from faith and belief and a purpose in life and the fact that we are all becoming money grubbers would mean that we care nothing but ourselves. Though I may have wavered in my faith at times, the light inside me that has an endearing attitude towards christianity is never lost. Most times when I feel lost and especially unsure of what to do in my life, without His guidance and grace I would just collapse and become very much a failure. The presence of God in my life is what keeps me pushing on past barriers to the man I am today.

ENOUGH OF ALL THESE REALIZATIONS OF MINE

Now on to much better news, MANCHESTER UNITED 2- MAN CITY 1. Yes, our noisy neighbors have finally sunk under the cosh of red. :) I couldn't be happier than to say this.

Yesterday, we sent my cousins off on their way back to Scotland where they now stay and honestly I really miss them now. We have been close knit all our lives and their leaving sparks emotions that I would normally keep under wraps. I wish them all the best in their days in scotland, I just hope I can come over soon, I heard its awesome over there!

It's valentines day tomorrow and like every year, love is in the air :) I think this song would be apt to this occasion.

Kinna Grannis- Valentine
"That you and me, found something pretty neat :)"

2011-02-12T00:09:00.002+08:00

Talking to the moon- Bruno Mars

I just bought the Bruno Mars album not long ago and I must admit, I'm officially hooked to the songs the man sings. This one especially was great not only melodically but has meaningful lyrics to all those love lost souls. Just listen to the carefully crafted lyrics and you'll realize it really is beautiful, in every aspect. HONESTLY EVERYONE HAS TO GET HIS ALBUM, I've never highly recommended an album, but this one is worth buying, worth every penny. :)DOO-WOOPS AND HOOLIGANS

These few days I've been going on an exercise craze, probably post new year and all that good food finally sinking in somewhere. I went jogging two days back for at least 2km and just yesterday I went gyming and swimming at serangoon gardens. Yes, it's friday and I have aches and pains on almost every muscle that has been off on exercise for so long, but it's good to finally feel like running again. Somehow, the challenge my dad issued me during one of the reunion dinners has got me wanting to train for my next half or even full marathon. Fingers crossed, I just hope this lasts!

We finally arrive at today when we had to send Felicia off to Australia at the airport. I don't know if you'll see this Felicia, but i wish you nothing but the best in Australia and I know the kangaroos may be awesome, but don't miss us too much eh! :)

Today was awesome, for the fact that the night before in my insomanic state of mind, I tossed and turned probably due to TOO MUCH SLEEP. Yes, you heard it, I have been sleeping too much lately. I only could get to sleep at 3.30am last night. I decided that tossing and turning would only waste my time, so I went to compile some photo's of the past 3 years of jc life that I would like to print as memory and I realised that I had done so many unforgettable things in jc I won't ever perceive myself doing in my whole life. The times when I had to play mocca with the pegasus pl's making a fool of ourselves on stage. The times when I led orientation. The times in camp aspire where we had to sleep in tents and paddle all the way to pulau ubin. My jc life was exciting.

Then I watched JUST GET OVER IT, with my siblings and cousins, the last hang out session before my cousins fly off to Scotland on saturday. Honestly, it was HILARIOUS! Adam Sandler is a great comedian and a fantastic actor, the whole lying about his whole life really proved to be a reminder to everyone that your life is only real to those you truly care about.

I just reached home from the airport not long ago and I kept thinking about the people leaving Singapore one by one to find futures abroad. For me, I feel extremely comfortable in this church, only because I've known everyone my whole life. We've been friends so long that leaving this country, I would miss the second family in the church so much. We had a great time in fellowship today and it reminded me of so many things that came to pass, that eventually, when we all split ways, what would happen. Soon the church will be dwindling and its up to us to bring more people to Christ, question is whether we've done enough. Today I've come to the realization that without this bunch of YFers, I don't know how far I would have been away from God today.

You know they may say I'm crazy but they don't understand, LETS JUST HOPE WITH THE LORD'S GRACE THAT THIS YF AND IT'S FRIENDSHIPS AND BONDS WILL LAST EVEN AS FAR AS THE EAST AND THE WEST!

2011-02-09T00:43:00.002+08:00

Christina Perri- Jar of Hearts

One of my new favorite songs i've successfully learned recently. The lyrics mean a lot to me and what I once felt of that certain, taking all the effort and tearing my love apart. Those weren't exactly the best of times, but the lyrics seemed to reach out to that particular moment in life when I felt exactly the same way.

Today was Liqing's birthday party so happy birthday Liqing!

Hanging out with friends probably doesn't get much better than today, just chilling in east coast talking and playing card games. I finally got to play sparkles after so long and it was a dive back into the past when I used to enjoy this so much. The bright lights and all the atmosphere that came with swinging them around. I remember in the past when I played these things, I would stick them into the ground to form smiley faces or to just toss them in the air to see them like little shooting stars tossed into the sky. Sometimes when you think about the past like that, you can't help but wonder how far you've come. We were discussing on the way back about turning the big 2-0 this year. To me turning 20 seemed like a long way away till this year when it dawned on me that I'm about to replace my 1 for a 2 on my double digit age. And honestly, it's a step forward into being older and more mature.

Looking at my friends one by one loosing their freedom is really a sign that mine is about to come as well. I really try my best to think about this day with the utmost of optimism, but honestly one man can only be as optimistic as this. TO ALL THOSE ABOUT TO ENLIST THIS WEEK OR WHO ALREADY HAVE ENLISTED, I JUST WISH YOU ALL THE BEST OF LUCK IN TEKONG OR CHOA CHU KANG AND TAKE CARE. Esp. Parthi, Des, Shariful, Zhi Yoong and to those who I've forgotten too :)

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-02-08T00:00:00.003+08:00

The aspect of time is so abstract no man can fathom. It can pass you by what seemed like seconds when it actually is hours, or it slow down in the most agonizing moments that make minutes seem like hours. In our minds, time is hard to grapple, such a mystery is time.

Time has run fast short and now i realise my time to enjoy myself maybe coming quickly before i know it, to an end. The new year has passed me by and all I recall are the great memories of chattering relatives and great food, with of course lots of red packets in between as a formality. Today, I sent off 2 of my friends heading into the army and loosing what they loved most, freedom. I know of so many heading into the army tomorrow that I can only sit and try not to think about this phase in my life. I may not be an actively combat fit army man, but I still have to go through PES E nonetheless.

Saturday was UNIVERSAL DAY! It was the 3rd day of chinese new year and this outing had been planned quite far in advance as a family outing to our dear cousins who will be leaving for scotland this saturday. Universal studios always brings about this little boy in you that you feel magical and airy fairy again. I've been to Universal last year and to say that this is all new to me would be lying. But I feel accomplished after that day because I've finished the most exhiliriating ride in universal studios, THE MUMMY. I shouted and screamed till I went hoarse for that ride but I didn't regret going on the ride, the ups and downs and plunges that make your heart fly into your mouth. If you have headaches I strongly recommend this ride, it isn't long enough to make you all giddy and scared, its fast enough that it shook my afternoon headache out of me, like a bolt of lightning through my tired body. The characters and long queues typical of theme park settings but to experience it with the whole family really makes this trip a whole lot more special, I'll upload the photos and let them do the talking soon!

Then we come to today where I met my pals for a night out before ns beckons. I have to say that hanging out with friends whenever is always awesome because these people will always make my day. We started out by having dinner at carls and talking about life and catching up. Then we decided to go play LAN which honestly I don't get what all the craze is on first person shooter games. Sure they may be exciting to once in awhile placate your frustrations and killing some virtual man but playing it for more than 2 hours to me makes me cringe at the meer taking a shot at anyone.War may not be my cup of tea or even any beverage that I will ever prefer, but I much rather enjoy racing down the streets of gotham or monte carlo than holding a gun in my hand and running around watching people die. Also, I always die, so that's a minus. Enough of the cons of war games, ironically, I even went out to buy cold of duty: black ops today which is a war game, what was i thinking.

All that ranting has to stop somewhere and here I am, already tired from the day out and thinking about knocking out on my bed till I feel like waking up.

YES FREEDOM IS AWESOME, it's hard to say otherwise.

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-02-04T16:42:00.002+08:00

WISHING ALL CHINESE A BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR!

It's already chinese new year, already past my last day of my work at the office and everything seems to zoom by right in front of me.

I finished work on wednesday just before chinese new year came and to say that it's all but a waste of time is simply ignorant and under appreciative. What I've come to learn is something that I wouldn't have had I just lazed around at home. I've altogether have a totally new view on life in the office and my respect for those people battling wars behind their desk to meet deadlines. Times in the office hasn't all been heavy loads of work, I had a fair bit of time just thinking about my future and catching up with the present. The bbc news webpage is one of my most visited websites now because of the quality they bring to world news and their views. I found myself also surrounded by people of so much warmth and care that I wouldn't ask for less. They would always call me for lunch breaks and after one month of being in the office so many friendships formed that I feel bad leaving so abrubtly. Though deep within me I still feel that the office life is "not my thing" I have put it up as an option knowing how much aspiration and hope my dad has on those broad shoulders of mine. I appreciate just how tough work life is, I now really do.

With Chinese New Year comes so much family warmth that I feel it must be one of the greatest tradition that has embeded itself into the social fabric of singaporean life. Reunion dinner emphasizes on the family and how even from corners of new found lands we gather at where we originated to have a warm meal over steam boat is just heart warming. My cousins family came back from Scotland, putting a pause on school work just to celebrate this time. I think I speak for everyone when i said we had a great time. The food was not only filling to the stomach but warming to the heart. Looking back, I would never trade such a close knit family for anything :)

Then after the traditional new years eve reunion dinner came and flew by the first two days of chinese new year. Not as auspicious this year due to the many mourning periods in our extended family and less people dropping by our house for a visit. Auspiciousness in itself is subjective because I feel that it never is as important as how you meet long lost relatives and that feeling of care and concerns drifts over where ever you go. Never mind new clothes and shoes and material things, a compliment from a relative or just a friendly shake of a hand does things to even those of the toughest of exterior. After so many years of being on the recieving end of ang bao's have I finally realized that the core of the festivities mean so much more.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, the lunar new year is to reunited loss relationships and to bury all anger and resentment to usher in a blessed year ahead. Spending time with loved ones, like how we had so much fun, my siblings and cousins all gathered together for a simple board game or hitting it off in a conversation. It's not how much you get, rather it's about family ties and how much you care.

I would post the photo's soon provided I can get them from my sister!

FOR THE REMAINING DAYS OF THE CHINESE NEW YEAR, TRY LOOKING AT IT LIKE I DID AND YOU'LL ENJOY IT A WHOLE LOT MORE.

To all those who've cared so much in the office, I'm going to miss those times we had. Especially the lunch gang:)

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING :)
UNIVERSAL HERE WE COME!

2011-01-25T13:46:00.003+08:00

Its already nearing the end of January, when I said that I hope the year will pass quickly, I didn't think it would actually speed by. 2010 sped by and 2011 right now is attempting to do the same. For me this year would be a year of all things new, some things less, like the hair on my head, some things more, like increased maturity to accept what lies ahead I hope. In my daily worklife (I speak as if I've worked for ages when actually this is only my 4th week working :D) especially on my way to work, i encounter so many people, yes squeezing every morning with the rush hour crowd ain't no joke, and often times I think about if these people are in the same mundane plight as me. Most in the trains everyday have to go to work because they do it for a living, it may not be out of passion or willingness, more out of survival than anything. I see bored and agonized faces at times, grumpy from being nestled out of bed by the alarm. I see passionate faces sometimes, though rare as it may be, all rearing and ready for another exciting day at work. At times, we neglect our passion and burning desire simply because we don't find it feasible.In society today, if you were to choose between one of the big four professions or being an artist which you have passion ever since your childhood days, I would think most would just do what they feel would support them and give them food on the table everyday. Just like that, passion fades away like a candle reaching the end of its wick and we are left with nothing but a memory of what we used loved to do. Always I've thought to myself, when the push comes to shove, when the most critical steps in life approach me, what decision will I make?

That's why faith is paramount, with no one to lead you or guide you, God always has away and we can all take comfort in the knowledge of that fact.

I realised I had drafted this post a few days back and I haven't posted it up till today which is already 28th a friday.

Adding on to the already many words in the post, i made an important realisation today. That when you're in an environment for so long, you adapt and get used to the things around you . A few weeks back when i started out I had no friends in this workplace, now getting to know how warm everyone is made me think about the sincere friendships i've made here and how its hard to forget everyone and their hospitality. This experience has certainly made me grow farther in life, pass exteriors and ingrained notions, into bonds that last. I now have a new found respect for office life and what accountants do.

The other day, my dad pulled me and my other cousin Dannial into the conference room to talk to us about reading financial statements. To hear my dad speak so passionately about the thing he loved so much really made me think twice about rejecting accounting from my career path. He like me had come from a jc with no accounting knowledge and to make it so big thus far really was a test of grit and determination for him. He has made known that if i could i was welcome to join the profession but till now I hesitate in where my future really lies. Even though I went back late that day the thoughts never left me of how he was passionately speaking about expanding his company into many new horizons. I just wish I knew what my passions were. I just wish.

Dear future,

I'll leave you in the hands of God

Sincerely, a boy who knows nothing of tomorow

2011-01-21T23:57:00.004+08:00

When life gets you down in the rocks, you have to pick yourself up. I wasn't exactly optimistic about passing driving today but at least i gave it a good shot. 26 points altogether with 20 points chalked up on the busy road out there, where is the justice, not giving learner drivers a chance. I learn from my mistakes and hopefully just hopefully I can pass the next test, whenever it may be.

LETS NOT DWELL ON PAINFUL THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST LOL
Not that it's that painful

Europe day 5:
It was day 5 in beautiful Switzerland and that day was all about basking in the extreme cold on top of the alps. In the morning, we headed straight to JUNFRAU otherwise known as the top of Europe by train after a long bus ride shrouded with snow. When we were riding up the mountain, there was an apparent snow blizzard out there with snow blasting in all directions and you couldn't see much far beyond the first few trees except a blanket of white. It was nice to experience first hand though. When we finally reached the top after an excruciatingly long ride, we decided like what all deprived Singaporeans who have barely had seen snow except in tv shows to SNOW FIGHT! And let me tell you that snow fights rock. Little timothy was the antagonist throwing snow bombs at everyone and all of us just got into a frenzy, we had so much fun. I vaguely recall Andrea and me falling down on the snow to make snow angels, which despite the jackets still felt horrifyingly cold. We weren't the snow angel experts so our snow angel just looked like a mess in the snow. After all the frantic snow fights and snow angel making, you could feel how numb your face was amidst the heavy falling snow and the first reaction would be to run into the sovinier shop that had heaters to keep us warm. Then was lunch and we braved the snow to walk to the top of the ice gradient into a restaurant which served great food and even better looking cakes.

Heading down afterward was a much better view since the snow fall had already died down and we could now admire the wonder of winter and the alps. Looking at every scene had me thinking of christmas and whenever the train went into the tunnels everyone would give a little sigh because they just couldn't stop snapping shots of the beauty of the breathtaking views they saw. Then we met the rest of the tour group who had opted out of the trip up to jungfrau and we went SLEDGING!!! Sledging is something you shouldn't miss if you go to switzerland and especially the alps. It was such a great experience navigating your sledge with your legs through the snow fall landscape that was so scenic it reminded me of one of those need for speed video games. Though 7km of sledging can really numb your legs to the point of swelling, the process of so fun, speeding down turns and drifting through the snow. Smashing uncontrolably into the snow when you loose control of your sledge. It was so exhilirating I find it hard to describe the actual experience of it all. IT WAS TERRIFIC FUN! The day was topped off with a long trip back to the another swiss hotel stopping by dinner at some marche like place, that had pretty good food.

TILL ANOTHER DAY FRIENDS! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-01-20T16:01:00.002+08:00

Sitting in front of the desl all day, once again office work has brought me back into mundane reality. I for one have one path straight that I don't think sitting for 8 and a half hours a day is healthy and even questionably sane. I probably don't have the mental endurance or the interest in secretorial work that i can work at it without feeling tired at all. The highlights of my day? Lunch break and 6pm when i finally get to put my mind out of the office and back home for rest. Now i officially admire what accountants do, this isn't merely a test of mental ability, it's a test of passion. If you weren't passionate about accountancy, everyday coming to work would be torture, especially to a part timer like me. I know I havre to shrug it off though and learn it the hard way to gain some work experience, I know many would want this opportunity and I should just make best use of this experience.

Sitting here has had somewhat made me think more, not just about life but about my future ambitions in the coming years. It gives me a chance to slowly sift out the options that I truely have passion for and desire. Though at times I know I can be indecisive and more often than not lazy to do anything about it, it's time I thought about what I would do with my future come what may. When I entered JC I grew to love the english language and all its facets and forms and right now more than ever i feel the need and desire to study further what would be quite a far fetched and out of the norm but interesting career of a journalist. I know you all might think there are so many other routes to choose and journalism isn't as glamorous as we all think at times but I feel that it would be interesting to test my creativity beyond boundaries of what I used to know. Travel journalism seems appealing to me and this may be one path I might follow in the future. I've always had this desire in me to travel the world and explore places I haven't been before, once I read a travel journalist claim that the world is my desk and the sky is my limit, how nice would that be.

Oh well, enough of my far fetched dreams of where I hope to end up in the future. Only the Lord knows how we will turn out. We may try as hard as we can to plan but eventually, it's best to just leave it in the potters hands.

You see, sitting in the office isn't all too bad, it helps me sort out my confused mind better amid piles of clients and workload still to be filed.

Right now, my mind constantly finds itself wandering away to tomorow when I take my test in cdc and how I'll do. I've prayed about it but I still can't seem to get myself to forget. I hope I'll bring good news after 3 :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-01-19T23:05:00.008+08:00

I read in this brilliant book I've been reading recently called What the Dog Saw by Malcolm Gladwell about the simplicities of life and happiness. "Happiness can sometimes be found in what we've always had or someone else is having", how contended we are is how we perceive life as we live it on a day to day basis. Should we be constantly wanting more when all we want could be right before us today.

BIG NEWS
My new I pod nano finally arrived. It was a sporadic moment that i decided to buy it from apple.com because it was on sale and 10 percent off. But i'm happy with it, being all mini and convenient but it packs a punch in sound quality as well. Free engraving and free shipping, who could resist. :)

Continuing on with Europe and day 4:
We were finally in Switzerland after a long day's bus ride the day before and were rearing to go to see what Switzerland had in store. First thing in the morning and the first thing you have is an awesome european breakfast in the hotel really makes your day. First we went over to the park of humongous chess pieces and rich history of christian faith in the reformed calvinist movement. The sights and sounds of Switzerland really do attempt to take your breath away each and ever time. Then we headed down to the district where many global organizations base and the biggest of them all being the UN which reminded me of Mr Yew and history and its traumatizing past. To see the flags of all the UN nations rise high really brought back memories of the many CSQ's don't it. Just next to it lay the broken chair a symbol of freedom and peace in the heart of a busy cold road center.

We then headed to the olympic park home of the olympic museum and it was such a sight to behold. All the statues and architecture and the flags blowing in the wind. Cue nice background scenery and great family members. Must say this was one of the most memorable places we visited that day.

Afterward it was on to the city where charlie chaplin was born. That place was filled with majestic beauty and everywhere was a sight to behold. It was surrounded by a magnificent waterfront and you'll see swans and ducks all basking in the warm sunlight despite constant cold winds blowing from time to time. There in the middle of the lake is a huge fork that makes the whole place seems almost cartoonish yet beautiful. Charlie Chaplin sure lived in an awesome place.

What was left of the day was a stop by an ancient castle which had a riveting view of the ocean beyond it and this quite medieval garden and of course who could forget, BRAD PITT. No we weren't actually going to see brad it was a bear pit in the middle of winter with no bears to show because sensibly all of them have gone into hibernation. Then we visited this pleasant little town with mrt's on the road and a huge christmas market.

THE BEST DINNER OF THE WHOLE TRIP WAS NEXT... repeat after me CHEESE FONDUE!!!! It was the best meal not only because the boss serving us cheese fondue was extremely enthusiastic buffed and high on what seemed like swiss cheese chocolates and hospitality, it packed a punch that we had cheese fondue that had a scent of white wine and chocolate fondue that smelt of the most heavenly milk chocolates.Yes words can't describe how awesome it tastes and leaves you coming back for more, even if it is only cheese with bread. The atmosphere was great because mr buff was constantly keeping us entertained and cheering him on every new cheese fondue he puts on the griller. Needless to say I never had so much fun while eating dinner, EVER :)

THIS MAN ENDED IT ON A GREAT NOTE

Till another day people
GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Driving test on friday and already im feeling a little nervy, I'll need all your prayers!

2011-01-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

I realised that ever since I posted the commentary of my europe trip for day 2, I've stopped completely writing about it.

SO HERE WE GO

Europe day 3:
Day 3 wasn't much to talk about cos it was most of the time traveling from paris to switzerland! Our cousins joined us though from Scotland at night which if i remember correctly was covered with heavy snow a few days before they made their way there.Every morning when you step out of the hotel, cold air would attempt to slap you awake in all its glory, and it always does a great job. In the morning we had to leave romantic Paris for a coach ride that took ages. We stopped by wine city Dijon for a little while and experienced a little bit of the town. I would have to say, even though the food is exorbitantly priced, the tastes are extremely flavorful and the pizza's there take the cake. I remember in Dijon we tried this three cheese Pizza and it was heavenly to say the least, not forgetting Escargots which was a must have leaving France. The wine city had wine prices that tempted my part time wine connisuer dad, only 5 to 10 sing a bottle of french wine, how cheap is that. Then scenic views seemed to whiz by the window as we made out way to Switzerland. Spectacular scenic views of snow capped mountains and snow laden houses were common on the way there. Everywhere you looked seemed to come out of a christmas card, it was quite a sight to behold. Then finally arriving at Switzerland, where we had this odd bland tasting white fish, supposedly swiss specialty fish caught in their lakes. That would have summed up the 3rd day in mighty europe!

Today I finally feel confident behind the wheel, my nerves put behind me, I just hope Fridays test will be done with flying colors! Wish me all the best :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY
GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2011-01-14T23:40:00.006+08:00

HELLO WORLD
IM HERE TO DUST OFF THIS OLD BLOG FOR MY FIRST POST IN 2011

I would have to say 2010 flew by in a second and now i'm sitting here already on the verge of 15th of january 2011. A lot of things have gone by and usually at the end of the year i look back at the past trying to reminsce the great things that have passed me by. This year I just didn't have the time to sit and think about the year past because i think in my mind i haven't got over the year passing so quickly.

2010 was a stressful year for me looking back. It was the year where a lot of habits changed and great memories were formed. The a-levels were obviously the biggest obstacle last year and climbing that ever tiring obstacle almost made me give up in despair. If it weren't for the friends I had cheering me on everyday. If it weren't for the teachers and their patience, where would we be my friends, where would we be.

In 2010, we entered 2s23, i thought this might turn out to be fine because i had my whole bunch of close friends going to the same class while merging with another class. But things turned out great, i felt our class was nothing short of awesome. Everyone was friendly and we were extremely fortunate to have such wonderful teachers guide us all the way. Even though we might have resented at first, it turned out great. New brotherhoods formed and i think I wouldn't have wanted to come to school everyday if not for all these friends in 2s23..

Everyday in 2010 was extremely mundane which involved most of the time studying and more studying. Consultations were the norm and for the first time everyone was rushing to see the teachers everyday. It was mad what we went through, but we still survived and hopefully did our teachers and this school proud. For me the pace change was hard to cope with but I still gave it my all. Now, looking back, i miss the times studying in school till 9pm with my study buddies mok and joel.Though it was energy sapping and tiring, persistance and support pulled all of us through.

Now, the results lie just around the bend, how uncannily quick

2010 was also the year of firsts
First time our bowling team did as well as we did in the nationals! :)

Though it was first time as seventh place, that was our last year on those glorious lanes. My hands occasionally itch to roll the ball down those lanes, bowling has been a great part of my jc life. The many friendships formed and all those long hours training and much money lost from our pockets was all worth it, sr bowling ftw!

I miss SR and all those friends and familiar faces so much right now

Then after the a's all was a blur because time sped by
PARTY TIME! :D

I still vaguely remember what happened on the last paper, everyone in the hall was excited to just go out and enjoy, that was a feeling i'll keep for the rest of my life. In my heart, I only had one thing in mind, ENJOY! :D

To top it off, I had an awesome holiday to Europe and Dubai, met so many new friends and experienced so many things i just couldn't experience anywhere else. God brought me through everything so praise the Lord.

YES I HAD AN AWESOME 2010

I JUST HOPE 2011 WILL BE THE SAME :)

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

If you thought I had gone here I am again!

2010-12-28T17:34:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD!
Finally I can take time off after the trip to Europe and Dubai, Christmas presentations and getting over my jet lag which has been making me fall sick of late to do a blog post :)

I just got back from Europe only a few days back and the experience of Europe and the friends I made on this trip will never leave me. Even though we were led by the most inexperienced tour leader of the decade, it was surely an eye opener everywhere I went. We have to count our blessings our family and thank God for watching over us every step of the way through the trip in Europe. Many were praying for us in church and worrying whether we could come back in time but the truth is we were on schedule every step of the way. Despite tragic and relentless snow in Europe we survived!

Let me start with day 2 since i already narrated on day 1 when we touched down in Paris at charles de goeh airport, we were greeted to not that fantastic a sight. Like my dad said, for a developed country and state france didn't seem to have the most impressive of airports.

Day 2 in paris was far more different. I could now see Paris for what it truly had been known as the romantic city. It's ancient architecture and the many historic places that we visited on that day really made me start to love this city. We first went to the Arc De Triomphe in Paris, though there wasn't much insight into the history of this ark but the intricate carvings and details that were engraved made it so grand in the middle of a bustling city square.

Then we went on to visit the Eiffel Tower. Apparently, what was interesting about the tower was that the early Pariseans actually thought it was an eyesore and wanted to demolish it, now it has become an icon and one of the places to visit in the world, how ironic. Which leads me to think that if they were really to demolish it, would anyone still know Paris as it is today? To see the tower first hand really is an eye opening experience, though it was dampened by the many frenchmen trying to sell their goods to us at a low price. The view on top of the tower was breathtaking and you could see the whole of Paris from up there.

After lunch we went down to the best art museum in the world, the Lourve museum in Paris. When you step into the museum you stare in awe at the gigantic glass pyramid hanging from the ceiling and judging from the crowd you would know that this was a great museum visited by the old and young alike. Then you go and view so many artifacts and paintings and statues of Greek Gods, the old testament, nativity, kings and fights of the past and you wonder how these people did it with such intracy and detail. It never ceases to amaze me how when I look at each picture it tells so many stories. Though the descriptions are all in french you always just try your best to analyze the things you see, it was a great experience honestly. Walking around such a large museums could give you new leg muscles too.

I'll write about the other days of my european trip another time.

Before I end of this post would like to wish everyone a BLESSED CHRISTMAS! I know I know its already past christmas but still it's the most important date of the year you know!... I had a wonderful christmas this year with family and friends, I don't know about you but as I grow in age I start to want less and i prefer spending time with those I love rather than receiving gifts. The best gift is already with those who believe, Jesus.

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

TOUCHDOWN PARIS FRANCE!`

2010-12-13T05:56:00.002+08:00

Hey world, I just touched down not long ago over in Paris after such a long flight on sunday morning at 930 for about 14 hours with a stop over at dubai in between. I was extremely excited all throughout the trip about the possibilities about what there is to explore in europe. It has always been a dream of mine to come and explore europe and to for this dream to be able to come true so soon makes me feel even more blessed than before. I watched movie after movie to pass the time on the emirates plane while on the way here and now looking at my sister's laptop its already 6am in the morning on monday in singapore, here in paris, its just around 11 plus on sunday. Talk about jet lag, now I don't have much of a mood to get to sleep, maybe it could be due to the many cups of coffee i unknowingly drank during the flight. Apparently all that hype came to waste when i first stepped out into the cold chilly weather that blew bombs of cold into my usually warm skin, these are the times when i don't like the cold. Paris like my dad said isn't as impressive as it seems at first sight at least. All I saw on my way to the hotel were dim lights that lit the streets and empty shophouses all closed for the day, even singapore seemed like a more enthusiastic place. Maybe we just were to far way from the city to see the beauty of paris,excited as i am, i just hope it'll be great tomorrow:) I'll upload the photos if this computer allows the hard disk to read.

You know what's still constantly on my mind?
Life without Jesus is like a donut, like a donut, like a donut!

Bonjour everybody bonjour, updates tomorow!

YF RETREAT 2010: CONNECTED

2010-12-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

Just got back from the retreat not long ago and wearing this t-shirt now in the comfort of my bedroom thinking about what has happened over the past week is already making me start to miss how fun camp was and how great it was organizing it all. It wouldn't have been possible without this yf comittee and all those who helped greatly and most importantly God who kept us safe throughout. I realized a lot of things in my life required change and one most important thing in my life that needed correcting was that I wasn't putting God in the spot light. I learnt a lot about the relationships we had with other christians and perspectives about many other aspects of christian living. This camp brought me so many reflective moments and to have it with my great yf buddies was even better.

I'm going to miss all that was great at the retreat!
The playing soccer with a small rubber ball in chapel 1 with the soccer gang.
The running around and playing all day and not forgetting embarassing ourselves with dots on our faces in town.
Playing monopoly deal in the middle of the night and at every break.
Not sleeping on the last day for the sake of a memorable video.
Stationing and participating in games.
Having fun with awesome friends.
Spending so much great moments with God.

If it was one lesson I took away from this retreat that meant the most to me, it was that these great brothers and sisters in christ all have my back and I don't ever need to worry!

So as i count down to another journey to Europe on Sunday morning which is making me all excited inside already, I pray that it'll all be smooth sailing and God may grant me and my family journey mercies.

I'M MISSING YF RETREAT ALREADY!

I'll keep this space updated everyday when I step into europe as much as possible. Like a boy stepping into a candy store, I'm finally going to the country's that I've only seen in documentaries on the tlc channel. I CAN'T WAIT :D

GOD BLESS!!!

PROM!

2010-12-06T00:05:00.007+08:00

It's been a while but I'm here to update life's story.

PROM 2010: HOLLYWOOD, just passed on friday and I got to say it was great to be able to meet the friends that I hold dear to with good food and good entertainment. This official last night of JC life really will make me remember this life changing JC experience for the rest of my life. Sure the education system is a pressure cooker that aims at killing those not prepared to slog it out, but it sure made me a more confident, mature and sure person, where would I be without friends who've brought me this far :)This prom night may not be the most dazzling of affairs but I'm sure everyone made the effort to dress to impress. If it wasn't for such great company it wouldn't be that great a prom would it. Pictures can express a thousand words so i guess i'll let the better pictures do the talking, picked out after so many taken that night.

These pictures are of great friends I've made in my JC life. It's been a great journey, really has been.

You know what pastor said today during sermon struck a chord in me. Today pastor talked about how christmas was over commercialized and is loosing its true meaning in the world today. How true that we all take for granted what this season is all about, it should be about God and how he sent His son to this earth for our sin. Not about gifts, presents, christmas trees and santa claus. It's good to have a season of giving but should we all just go back to where this all originated from and remember Jesus our saviour? I'm sure all these things make you feel warm and fuzzy inside and christmas is a happy season, but more often than not we forget of all the things He has done. This christmas , amid the turkeys and the log cakes, mistletoes and santa claus, presents and christmas trees, the glittering night sky full of spirit and decoration, we shine the spot light back on Jesus Christ.

GOD BLESS! CAN'T WAIT FOR YF CAMP TOMOROW :)

The happenings of late, and the exciting things to come :)

2010-11-30T01:13:00.003+08:00

I've been pretty busy of late with nothing but enjoying my time. Planning for the upcoming youth retreat, meeting up with friends and all that jazz. Man has life ever been better than this.

Events galore this December and I'm pretty excited about it all. First major event is prom happening at York Hotel this Friday, I haven't got all I wanted yet but hopefully by then, all will fall in place.

Over the weekends, I went to sitex on friday with the bunch from s26 and i got to buy this very cool two mini speakers at 12 bucks and of course a cover for my phone after wanting to get one for so long. I had a great time there and the crowd even on a friday was extremely huge, then again if something's on offer you'll expect singaporeans to pounce. Kinect seems like something cool to have, a Wii without remotes and better graphics, now I look back in a tinge of regret. Then on saturday had a great time shopping with my family after such a long while and I have to admit shopping is quite an exercise!

Then today I finally got down to going over to queensway shopping centre with steph and settled the camp t shirts, just hope they turn out fine! I almost got scammed by a lady from one of the printing shops which offered me basic and i mean black and white printing services for the same price as those I got printed. Thank God we stumbled upon this small shop that offered better quality services and more choices at the same cost. :) Ikea after being drenched in the pouring rain was pretty worth it, darn those swedish meatballs are awesome!

I was watching the AMA's over the weekends and this performance was one of the best performance of them all. I LIKE IT! I especially like the second part with pitbull :)

God bless!

2010-11-24T21:47:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY FTT! (final theory test) :) One step closer to bring a driver friends!

I loved today simply because I got to wake up late. I got to chill and most importantly I finally passed my FTT on the second attempt. First thing tomorow morning book the practical test date and here I come driver's licence :)

2010-11-24T00:53:00.003+08:00

HAS FREEDOM EVER FELT THIS SWEET
HAS THE END OF EXAMS EVER FELT SO GREAT
NEVER, I SAY AGAIN NEVER!

Ending the a levels symbolizes a lot of things for a young teenager under this pressure cooker system for so long. It means that finally after a gazillion exams and more sprouting of white hair, the stress is over at least till after ns. It feels surreal not having to worry about the next paper in the near future, it feels surreal to finally be able to really enjoy and have fun again. Everytime we try we get plagued by guilt because we haven't studied the night before and instead chose to have fun, that was the ultimate dilemma. Now, there's no more dilemma. So to all those JC kids who like me have already ended their A levels go all out and enjoy yourself, no hose bared fun because you deserved it. You slogged your guts out all the years of your life just to get to this major exam that determines the rest of you life. You gave it your 110 percent, now its time to let loose and let go! PARDON THE HAPPINESS IN THIS POST COS I NEVER FEEL SO LIBERATED IN MY LIFE. ITS TRULY, TIME TO PPPPPAAARRTTTYYY!

I know this may sound naiive and many of you think that this is just a part of life but you don't know what all the a level kids in singapore have been through. It's truly a test of mental, physical, psychological and every strength you every can think of possible. When life's like that do you cherish the holidays and a break so much more!

And to think of it, I have to thank God most importantly for helping me stay grounded and focused and helping me end the exams on a great note with a great econs paper 2.

Just got back from an outing with the class. It was great to finally be able to just sit down and have a great meal and a good chill out movie session in such a long time. Just to not worry about tomorrow :) I love how lame the movie was which made it surprisingly funny, you all should go check it out if you're the sucker for lame jokes. Red, was a great movie extremely entertaining, I would have given it a 7/10, though not perfect it still made for a great laugh :D

And now that I've got a huge obstacle of the exams out of the way, the countdown timer starts on all the exciting things in life this December that are about come:
YF CAMP
TRIP TO PARIS, SWITZERLAND, GERMANY AND DUBAI
CHRISTMAS PRESENTATIONS
CHRISTMAS!

This december is going to be a blast!

This is going out to all those who ended their a levels!

2012- Jay Sean feat Nicki Minaj
"We're gonna party like, party like its the end of the world! wwooooooooo, we're gonna live like its the end of the world, gonna party like its the end of world!"
POP THE CHAMPAGNE AND LIGHT THE FIREWORKS AND MOST IMPORTANTLY HEAVE A HUGE SIGH A RELIEF WON'T YOU!

God bless :)

liberation day is almost upon us

2010-11-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

Time to dust the cobwebs off this blog i've almost long forgotten.

The a levels are about to end soon and the excitement is getting to me, so many things to do so little time. I've been waiting for this day of liberation since it all started. The day on 23rd november 2010 on 4.45pm when we put down our pens and smile to ourselves because and heave a huge sigh of relief. No more nervous wreck the night before and long nights cramming innumerable amounts of information into our already about to burst minds. No more wishing we were somewhere else instead of fighting this uncertain battle. No more nervously waiting for the exam hall doors to open while wishing each other nothing but the best and coming out so defeated and dissapointed. If its anything I've learnt from 3 years in JC, exams are the times when white hair starts to sprout and wrinkles form, not forgetting those unflattering eyebags that show how hard we worked. DEAR FRIENDS, THE TIME IS ABOUT TO COME, 2S23 3 MORE DAYS TILL WE PPAARRRTTAAAYYY!...

I've got lots in store for this holidays and I can't wait to get it started!

Just two more papers, I'm already starting to loose concentration and power of will. If not for all those around, I wouldn't have pushed on this far and of course God and His guiding grace played one big part in this tiring and long marathon of exam after exam. P.s to those who set the papers this year especially chem, WE'RE ONLY HUMAN SO WHY KILL US?!

Alright friends, I'm back because I can't seem to get started on doing work. On the 23rd of november we POP THE CHAMPAGNE!

GOD BLESS!

liberation day is almost upon us

2010-11-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

Time to dust the cobwebs off this blog i've almost long forgotten.

The a levels are about to end soon and the excitement is getting to me, so many things to do so little time. I've been waiting for this day of liberation since it all started. The day on 23rd november 2010 on 4.15pm when we put down our pens and smile to ourselves because and heave a huge sigh of relief. No more nervous wreck the night before and long nights cramming innumerable amounts of information into our already about to burst minds. No more wishing we were somewhere else instead of fighting this uncertain battle. No more nervously waiting for the exam hall doors to open while wishing each other nothing but the best and coming out so defeated and dissapointed. If its anything I've learnt from 3 years in JC, exams are the times when white hair starts to sprout and wrinkles form, not forgetting those unflattering eyebags that show how hard we worked. DEAR FRIENDS, THE TIME IS ABOUT TO COME, 2S23 3 MORE DAYS TILL WE PPAARRRTTAAAYYY!...

I've got lots in store for this holidays and I can't wait to get it started!

Just two more papers, I'm already starting to loose concentration and power of will. If not for all those around, I wouldn't have pushed on this far and of course God and His guiding grace played one big part in this tiring and long marathon of exam after exam. P.s to those who set the papers this year especially chem, WE'RE ONLY HUMAN SO WHY KILL US?!

Alright friends, I'm back because I can't seem to get started on doing work. On the 23rd of november we POP THE CHAMPAGNE!

GOD BLESS!

SRJC GRAD DAY 2010

2010-10-23T22:03:00.004+08:00

I've officially graduated from SRJC on the 22nd of october 2010...

I have really grown into a part of this school that leaving it seems all too soon... I remb the times in j1 where we were all strangers, then in the blink of an eye we're here almost reaching the end point where the race, though long and hard, has been a blast... there has been many friends i made that i will never forget and all my life i'll keep there in my heart...though at times i may not cherish some friends, but every friend that i make in srjc, made the time i spent here all worth while... these three years have been no waste because i learnt a plethora ( a new word i learnt) of lessons and i've grown to be more mature in the things i say and the way i express myself... no doubt that without this srjc family, teachers, friends, uncle henry and even the canteen aunties, i would not have been where i am today..

On this day when i reminisce about the past while looking towards to future, i really had no regrets in sr, albeit sad moments, there were many moments to keep and remember for years to come... it was 1s18, 1s26 and 2s23 that made these three years the best there ever was... :D

Indeed, only on days like these do you feel extremely nostalgic about the times thath have passed you by in the blink of an eye and in your heart feel that you could repeat this experience all over again (without the stress of taking the a levels) you would..

I thank everyone who's been there for me through this last lap...
Mr Diva for your touching speech on grad day and being such a great ct..
Mr Ang for all that motivation and dedication and energy you bring...
Miss Zeenat for the times of laughter in class and the times you stayed back for consults..
Mr Tan for being such a sarcastic yet brilliant gp teacher...
Mr Yew for being you :)..

This is such a long and draggy blogpost but I just have to say, SRJC will always be a part of me... :) thanks for the memories!

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE.. all the way till the a's!!!!! looks like my blogs going to have a few more cob webs before i start posting again... :) KEEP SMILING !

2010-09-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

Misery- Tyler Ward
"I am in misery there ain't nobody who can comfort me..."
:) completely how i feel a times.. plus its the new song on my mind at the moment... "your silence is slowly killing me" (p.s the rapper in the video is extremely talented just check him out)

This week has gone by in a flash and like everyone says, before you know it, the a levels are here.. i've decided to be more anti fb and blogger since it takes up so much of my time... but its hard because these are the outlets i usually turn to when i need a break.. somewhere to hang my frustrations or to check on the life of others..

I've been hearing the radio a lot recently, probably because my i pod crashed a month back and my galaxy just refuses to let me download new songs into the phone because its constantly not on idle mode.. i wonder why... and i'm starting to love listening to 987 again... shan and ross, muttons on the move, young... its great stuff

I can't wait for all this to be over honestly because what we as jc students do everyday is study and sleep study and sleep again... the mental exhaustion is overwhelming i tell you..

thanks to the dedicated teachers i have in my school i won't ever give up this long and crazy journey that is going to end int two months time.. and like a friend of mind once said... when you're in jc you can't wait for all the studying to be over.. but when you look back at it, you'll miss the great times you had with your teachers and friends...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING

manu 3-2 ftw :)

2010-09-12T21:33:00.003+08:00

It was results week... all i have got to say is that i have to work a lot harder if i want to make it somewhere... cos right now, its no where...i'm trying my best.. i put in tons of effort especially for a certain chemistry and all i see are the same dismal results... sometimes i just star in envy at the results of my smarter friends but i know i can't feel bitter for long because the Lord has it all planned out for me... i try to look on the positive side but this time i fall short... i think long and hard and realize the stark reality hitting me in the face.... now more than ever, i need the Lord... but more often that not i fall short of glorifying Him with horrible results like these...

When you have little interest in doing something, the things that you thought have dont will undo itself ultimately...

I had great fun at bottle tree park on family day on friday paintballing for the first time in my life.. where have you guys been if you haven't tried to paintball... it was fun shooting all the paint pellets around till you actually get hit by one... the impact initially wasn't that painful but when you get back you'll know where it hit.. bruising and marks everywhere... but it was great fun!

I'm not exactly looking forward to school this weekend... its do or die for the next two months.. wish me luck people

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!
(woooo final evaluation pass bodoh!)

2010-09-06T01:08:00.003+08:00

I see through your flaws though they be plenty because im not chasing after your flaws, i'm chasing after you :)

ITS BEEN OFFICIALLY DECLARED THAT I'M USELESS IN STUDYING AT HOME...

Wasting time in the morning to get my new adidas shoes from while to brown and to get soaked in a rain just to get a pretty cool shirt and a bag of jacobs biscuit wasn't exactly my idea of a fantastic morning... jacobs walk of life was a failed attempt just because the weather was gloomy and reeked of go to bed rather than lets go out for a nice walk... I thought planning today was great.. Jw was fun as usual... and now that i have to face the prospect of a long day in school tomorrow... i find comfort in the knowledge that its just one out of the three school days... 8 weeks to the a levels, what am i thinking.. i've got to step it up a notch if i want to do well.. i need to have that hunger and desire.... i need to reach out and grab hold of the stars i thought i couldn't reach.. i hope this week when all the results come back to me, it'll be for the glory of God's name, i hope it'll be fine....

You know what my dear yf friends....

I just looked through my dusty old chiang mai photos and relived the memories that once gave me great joy and brought me so much closer to God... the times where we had to carry logs down a hill... where we could play soccer in a pristine field barefooted.. play checkers with rocks... bathing in ice cold water with the spouting heater and spiders for companions... birds with IQ of 122... dog sheep... the night markets with fake jerseys... BANANA PRATA!... night sharing sessions... steamboats.. eating fats that looked like squids... getting rammed by john the deacon with a trolley.. hugged by paulo... THE LOVE WE FELT... I MISS CHIANG MAI!

2010-09-04T23:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD! Life after exams has been nothing short of good

Though i know am on the verge of getting my prelims exam scripts back probably by week i sit here anxious wanting to know how i've done, though pretty alright for maths i hope the rest of the papers will be great.. sometimes when things are not in your hands, you got to leave in the one whom you know will provide....

I like the new post promo timetable, only one long and horrendous day on the monday to come and the rest is pretty laid back.. guess it gives me more self study time and time to get back to mugging.. life has never been so tough before... its tolling everyday

i had fun this week playing soccer with my friends in a long time and scoring a goal though letting in quite a few... i wish i could be back to the secondary school days where we played soccer without having to worry about later... and hanging out with the wusses playing cs source, must admit im just can't play first person shooter games... then having dinner and catching up with rohith and ed after a long while and meeting chris on the way.. this week has been rather eventful...

I've been reading this extremely interesting book called slumdog millionaire originaly named Q and A.. its much better than the movie and the story is pretty captivating.... its a good read that tells you how fortunate we all are while the people in india in dharavi constantly live in a stereotypical whole where the outcasts and the lower classes are not given a chance to break out of this system and mold..

teachers day recently passed on wednesday and though it may be already three days past teachers day i would still like to wish all the great teachers in sr a happy teachers day!... :)

class bbq was a blast :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!

2010-08-29T03:06:00.002+08:00

MY SHOES ARE HERE! Ordered 2 pairs of shoes a few months back from asos.com and they were here on friday, must say they look great :D... Got scammed on the white one cos i thought it was leather, but still its the classy kind...

Disappointments at times tell you something dont they... that you shouldnt ever be that disappointed because its all in God's hands and never in yours... So trust in the Lord...

I've been loving the break I've been getting these few days.. the sleep that i rarely got.. the moments of rest and relaxation have made me a happy man.. now its time to focus and get back on my stride that took me to the prelims.. i've got to have that hunger and desire to do better than i did this time round..

Just the way you are- Bruno Mars
"She's so beautiful and i tell her everyday"
"Every time she ask me do i look ok? I say when i see your face there's not a thing that i would change cos you're AMAZING just the way you are"
"Cos when you smile the whole world stops and stares for a while"
This song reminds me of you :)

YOU'RE AMAZING JUST THE WAY YOU ARE..

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-08-27T11:02:00.005+08:00

THE PRELIMS ARE OVVVERRR! :D
Though its just a small battle on the road to the a levels, i feel accomplished to have finally finished the prelims and hopefully i wont do as badly as my mid years... when you have optimism, you have hope.. i hope

Just when i thought i could go into full fledged no hose barred party mode at least for the 4 day long weekend reality hit me that i cant party that long cos i have to think for the long haul the a levels.. darn what a joy killer.. but i make it count :)

I have to say this prelims were great in some ways and utterly depressing in others... for one, i found history to be the easiest paper of the whole prelims for the first time.. maths was managable and hopefully carelessness doesnt pull me down... the rest seemed pretty alright.. chem though was a killer for me, despite me giving it my all, i guess my all just wasnt enough... enough of all the exam talk... these two days have been great!

its something that after exams brings you... a load of your mind that you feel so free you want to party!

the night of the final exam day when everything was done and dusted... 2s23 came over to my place for a night of chilling bbq and hang out... it was great having everyone (well almost) over and we all had a blast... i find all of us being more comfortable with one another and having fun... though i dont have the pictures i can assure you we had a great one that night :)

YESTERDAY

DEEP DEEP DEEP SLEEP (12 hours to be exact) was brilliant.. and i needed it... woke up at about two and rushed over to meet amos and steph for lunch... which was great finally being able to catch up with them.. chilled out over lunch and swensons... it was great having the time to hang out with these two

I think i lost track of time then in all that sweet goodness

Rushed back home to changed and cabbed to bugis for PETRINA'S BIRTHDAY! thinking i was late but only parthi was there waiting at the mrt... we had a good night out today celebrating her birthday... we're sorry we didnt get you any present but we hope that the night was AWESOME!... i miss the times we spend as a clique, talking hours away and having fun at the same time... great jap food at iluma, great company and a talking machine that helps us order food... :)

WE HAD A CRAZY TIME
Ending off the day going crazy at the rooftop garden of illuma... what a great day with great friends :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! PRAY FOR MY FINAL THEORY TEST TONIGHT THAT I DONT FLUNK IT :)

2010-08-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING LATELY JUSTTHOUGHTISHOULD!

If its something i've realised after so many days and weeks of intense studying and high pressure.... STUDYING IS HARD, SOMETIMES ALMOST TOO HARD

People who know me know that I'm an optimistic person and i never like to think that i can't do something i just go in there and give it my best shot... this time round for the prelims im really giving it my all despite fatigue despite the constant nagging in my brain to give up... so whatever the results i leave it up to the Lord...

I've neglected this space and its been lying here unposted for a many days.. since im taking a break from what is mainly occupying my mind and life right now, STUDYING.. i figured i would post some of my favourite songs that keep my sane in my insane life in jc at the moment...

FOR SOME REASON I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO A LOT OF RADIO and yes, a lot of muttons on the go in the evenings when i really get down to serious studying... it helps me laugh out loud it helps me get my mind off what's ahead!

The songs i've come to love are hot on the radio at the moment and they're great songs honestly!

Katy Perry- Teenage Dream
David Choi covered this, just brilliant!

King Of Anything- Sara Bareilles
You should check out the official music video, it won't play if i link it... its a great song :)

Dynamite- Taio Cruz
Great cover on a song with a great catchy tune!

Dynamite and Magic cover

I know you might think I surf youtube a lot to come up with so many videos... but you know what i just happened to look them up when i search for these songs... but youtube surfing can bring you so many covers that are better than the orginals.. all the talent on youtube

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO AJ RAFAEL, ALYSSA BERNAL, DAVID CHOI, TYLER WARD.... BRILLIANT TALENT ON YOUTUBE... :)

Guess i have to get back to studying fellas! I WANT A BREAK FROM THIS ROUTINE! :/ i miss the chilling times though i know that its just 3 months away from liberation... God please give me the strength!... and come to think of it, i miss bowling a lot and i miss those of my friends in the army who i haven't caught up with in a long time...

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-08-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

JUST WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO START STUDYING THE COMMUNITY SHIELD HAD TO START...

For a moment i thought i was finally into the "groove of studying" it soccer dragged me into this self craved addiction.. to watch the new and improved united with chicharito in the number 14 and chris smalling in the number 12 and to look at how united dismantle each and every chelsea player apart is extremely satisfying... but the last i looked at my phone and the countdown timer I DONT HAVE TIME ANYMORE :(

8 days to prelims and 93 days to a levels someone please save me

for moments in your life like this when you want to smash your head into the wall out of desperation don't because someone else in this world has it worse off than you... today we had a great sunday school lesson and it taught me about suffering... the truth is we all haven't been through suffering at all in our lives on this blessed island... you may think you're suffering but someone out there has it way worse than you... i thought about the things i had.. a great family, an opportunity to study, a great house to live in, friends that care for me, i live everyday happily jut because i can ... we all live blessed lives its the way you look at life that makes life the way you think it is

TIME TO GET DOWN TO BUSINESS!

I LOVE LONG WEEKENDS

I LOVE THE NATIONAL DAY

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR PAINTBALL ON FAMILY DAY! :D

God bless and keep on smiling!

2010-08-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

AWESOME AWESOME NIGHT :)

FIRSTLY HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT!... Hope you had a great time today friend.. even though our class had a failed surprise but we hope you liked it all... :) and it was because of you i wasted my afternoon away trying to complete labyrinth and all its crazy 10 levels... hahaha

THANKSGIVING CONCERT 2010 was the best thanksgiving concert ive attended in my 3 years in this college... i could really feel the passion in the teachers as they performed and i feel that we've got the most passionate and great teachers in sr!... mr tan with his emceeing and being different characters was extremely hilarious.. and when you see the fun side of so many of your teachers it really gets you in a great mood to cheer yourself hoarse and laugh at all the things they do on stage... I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT TONIGHT! :) thank you teachers for such a great thanksgiving... i hope this sr tradition never fades because every year has never been a disappointment... the great theme of oscar awards really made for a smooth performance and the ending marked a great night tonight.. :)and sitting with the crazy bunch of guys in my class really made for a great night.. the shouting the cheering and made me realize that im in such a great class that will bring me great memories when i look back in the future..

after that i had dinner with the bowlers and though all of us looked tired after thanksgiving i was glad i had the chance to meet up with this bunch of people again.. i always think about the great times in bowling training and how we still always make it a point to keep in touch.. sr bowlers ftw... its such a waste that this cca is closing down!...

TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY AND I HOPE THIS LONG WEEKEND WILL BE A GOOD ONE AS WELL.. I WANT TO DO WORK BUT MY MIND TELLS ME NOT TO... :(

studying is hard

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!
ps i'll post the thanksgiving photos as soon as its uploaded :)

2010-08-01T13:19:00.002+08:00

ANOTHER HECTIC WEEK JUST FLEW BY
JUST TWO WEEKS TO THE PRELIMS
JUST 14 WEEKS TO THE A LEVELS
I'M PANICKING AT THE THOUGHT OF IT BEING OVER IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE
SCHOOL'S KILLING ME
I BARELY GET SLEEP
EVEN THOUGH I CRAVE FOR THE LIFE I USED TO LIVE
I KNOW ITS FOR THE LONG RUN
I KNOW ITS FOR MY FUTURE
THAT'S MY LIFE

If life had to hit you where it hurt the most... it would be the times when it takes my precious sleep away from my sleep deprived mind... though my will to carry on exceeds the need to sleep, sometimes i just have to collapse in oblivion.. though there are a thousand and one things to do.. i need a place to pour out the vent of complaints within me... its in human nature to do what doesn't hurt.. thats why we all love the easy way out..

WILL RUN 2010
ON A RANDOM NOTE
The event of the week was definitely will run... watching the girls run and cheering them on was great but running in the actual race nearly killed me... i clocked 11km in 1 and a half hours with a flu still on me... my lack of stamina meant i only could stay running till the 5km mark... then the hot sun took over and all i wanted to do was walk... everytime i was near the supporters arena where my great friends would cheer me on i pushed and had the will to run as far as my tired legs can take me... i never thought i could finish this will run without the support of everyone every where, all my friends who seemed to be in so many areas i couldnt stop much lol... now with my aching muscles and knees, i look back on saturday and relished how great it felt crossing the finishing line... it had that sense of accomplishment and achievement...

I DON'T WANT MONDAY TO START AGAIN... THIS TERM IS JUST MAD

2010-07-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

For this cycle - Closure part 2

Sometimes we try so hard to be somebody else when all we have to do is be ourselves
Local music for the win :)....

I just thought you all needed to know that I want to officially log off all internet connections during the weekdays so that i can focus of the gruelling road of studying hard... 3 more weeks to prelims and 15 weeks to the a levels is really no joke... I WANT TO BE THE BRIGHTEST STAR :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING

ps blogging may come only once a week now during the weekends when i'm free... so to all you readers out there priority counts right? :D

2010-07-26T02:28:00.002+08:00

And the sermon went "We're all in anxiety about the future about the things of the present... why not just leave it all to the Lord..." In everything you do... in prayer its not the quantity its the intensity and sincerity in the way you pray

NO PROBLEM IS BIG IN THE EYES OF GOD

I more often than not find myself caught in the middle.. i'm the kind who would look for God much more in adversity that in everyday life...i'm resolved stop being such a weak christian... i feel like i have to something about it before it all turns grey

SCHOOL AND THAT PAINFUL ROUTINE STARTS AGAIN TOMORROW..

OFF TO FINISH THAT PILE OF WORK EVEN THOUGH ITS 2 AM :(

2010-07-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

Love the way you lie

"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, its alright because I like the way it hurts"

It's been a eventful day... woke up on a wrong note, late and dazed because of the late night i had last night... rushed to school to take a test i wasn't even prepared for... but the p's talk was inspirational.. it really woke me up to the reality of the a levels... when you think about it... i dont want to be the person who passes the exams but fail to make it to the local uni... i asked myself why i even stepped into the jc education in the first place... the only answer that was definite is i knew i wanted to enter uni and secure a future... but i didn't expect to sacrifice so much... but i know i have to like the way it hurts before i can do well... BRING ON THE PRELIMS :)

Today I treated the wussies to dinner.. THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS GUYS! :)... i enjoy going out with these bunch of people because they always make a fool of themselves and its great fun just to watch every moment... LOL... i've grown to love these friends of mine... we've been through a lot together as friends and we've come a long way... what would I do without these people in my life honestly...

You called me and wished me happy birthday, I never felt so happy these few months because i'm glad you remembered.. we talked about everything.. we had a lot to catch up on... your words motivated me more than anything ever can... you believed in me is what's important... I'll never forget the feeling i get whenever i talk to you because it still lingers.. I find myself stumbling over words and things to say, trying to appear natural in front of you... no one has ever made me feel this way... :) YOU MADE MY DAY...

what a great 19th :)

2010-07-24T01:21:00.004+08:00

I HAD AN AWESOME MAGNIFICENT AND MEMORABLE 19TH... Thank you to all of my friends who made this so special... even a shake of the hand to wish me happy birthday,the wishes on facebook mean something to me...

I had an great and eventful birthday today!:)

In the morning i awoke to tons of smses on my phone that it hanged in the process... i thank everyone for being so sincere and sending me texts and wishing me a happy birthday... :) I really appreciate it!!... I still remb rohith sending me a text saying he had to wish me a happy birthday earlier cos he had live firing the next day... thanks everyone!

Then in school I went for barely two hours of lesson.. during which one of the break 2S23 surprised me with a cake and a song outside the library (2S23+ shuwen and shina)... i couldn't believe how great this day was turning and how the whole class was there gathered outside the library made the scene all the more heartwarming..THANK YOU 2S23 FOR MAKING THIS DAY SO SPECIAL... especially to the girls, jiaqin and jiaxin who planned this for me I can't thank you enough!...

And then econs joan's note on my back and the present for my great s18 friend peiling and not forgetting econs remedial ending early :)

Then we part of our class met again for dinner at 313@somerset.. we had great fun and great food... and of course no forgetting the squabbles between kl and nevin... then we went to the rooftop by one of the longest escalators i've ever seen in singapore to the top of orchard central... and eventually ended up heading off to giraffe where the house band dedicated a birthday song to me.. thank you jiaxin for remembering the song thats constantly on my head, billionare, and attempting to dedicate it to me though they couldn't play it (but secretly in my hear i was thinking i could! :D)...thank you everyone who came down for dinner today.. parthi, tegeoh, joel, jiaqin, jiaxin, huiyee, phoebe, denise, nadia, nevin, mok and kiat long and made it such a memorable and great end off to my birthday... :) though i don't have much picture proof, i assure you i had a blast with you guys!

And when i reached home who would've know that the package sent to me through the mailman is actually from my band buddies who gave me a shirt that read "I'm a guitar hero" and a powerful guitar tuner :)

I CANT THANK EVERYONE ENOUGH... :D

Thank the Lord for a great day and my friends who made it all the best!

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-07-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

I'm sitting here reluctant to do my gp work... though i know i have to get it done... my motivation is somewhat stifled and my brain isn't functioning too well... but i have to pull through this because its no joke ,its the a's... i find myself in this predicament not only for gp but for most of my other subjects..with God's grace i hope i can find that last push to the finish line...

I live by day now... plainly because there's so much work to do and so little time.. i constantly remind myself how close the prelims are and i shouldn't be surfing the net(or typing this blog post either)... because there really is NO time and the sense of urgency in me is surfacing.. i realized if you don't step it up now, you won't be full force coming into the a's... I feel I have to meet expectations not only of myself but others of me...

I know the post sound terribly demoralizing... but I HAVEN'T GIVEN UP THE SLIGHTEST BIT :)...

We'll be a dream cover- AJ Rafael

On a random note.. AJ Rafael always makes me want to pick up the guitar and play it like he does because its darn beautiful...this song has meaningful lyrics too.. i feel this is better than the original one, sounds more sincere and down to earth

"When the lights go out, we'll be safe and sound.. We'll take control of the world like it's all we have to hold on to.. AND WE'LL BE A DREAM.." :)

SONG OF THE DAY..

TIME FOR SOME GP ACTION

As i countdown another two(actually 1 cos a day already passed) more days to the 23rd of july.. I REALLY FEEL LIKE I'M A LITTLE OLDER AND A LOT WISER :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-07-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

SAMSUNG GALAXY S!

THANK YOU MUMMY AND DADDY FOR THIS SUPER PHONE... Usually, my parent's will never let me have this privelage to such a great phone like this... but on my 19th birthday they had me... thank you so much.. bye bye sony ericson hello samsung... facebook and all at my fingertips.. power to the android...

I know i'm letting my materialistic conscience peak over my shoulder but i'm so darn happy I got this phone... :) the functions and capabilities of this phone is unimaginable and the camera is a perfect 5 mega.. when i compared it with the htc at the phone shop, everything simply paled in comparison... thank you mummy and daddy for this advanced birthday gift! :)

Catechism class today was extremely insightful and though provoking.. the theory of pre selection really got me thinking about why we should worry about our future.. and since its all in God's hand we should continue to stay strong in our faith because we don't know, only He knows... the weekend passed by pretty fast and I had to say I had a good rest for the long nights i endured over the weekdays.. the weekends has passed by in a jiffy once again and i find myself facing with the monday blues all over again.. this week is going to special, i know it ;)

Our family met up in our living room just now to webcam skype our uncle and his family over in scotland.. man do they look happy and carefree over there.. free all the way till september... how great is that.. i really could use a break right now.. and i miss my cousins...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-07-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

EXCUSE THE EXPLETIVES IN THE PREVIOUS SONGS... I didn't know this was the more "vulgar" one... but still it has a great tune to it...

I remember the times where we didn't have to worry about anything and I look back and wish i was back then... even last year, it was evenly paced and rest in between was plentiful... NOW, what is my life turning into... I'm even starting to doubt i have a life.. i'm just a routine robot trying to fit into this cruel education system we inherently have to handle... i now know what everyone means when jc2 life kills you.. i'm experiencing this painful process which i try to sugar coat by telling myself i enjoy studying...

YF today was all about idols and placing God as a priority in your life... Looking back at what we discussed today.. something dawned on me that haven't struck me in a long time... I, most of the time tend to look to God only in adverse situations... I don't know what's gotten into me but I find myself drifting away from him like a driftwood floats away from the branch of the tree it came from... the tides are strong and hard as I may try, the factors in play always make it hard... but my faith and beliefs should anchor how i live my life... STAY STRONG I'VE GOT TO STAY STRONG

THIS WEEK HAS BEEN MADDENNING... One day when i was walking home down that ususal alleyway to my house.. i looked up front at the big old tree towering over the school and my house and started wondering if i continue like this, i would go bonkers or not..sometimes in shows, people vent their frustrations by screaming at the top of their lungs on the rooftop or on the seashore, i sometimes need that kind of release, because life like this is tiring...

I'M DETERMINED TO DO WELL THIS TIME ROUND... if coming back home will only lead to procrastination, staying in school no matter how tired may just help me to clock enough hours to do well for the prelims.. in just 4 more weeks, time passes way too fast...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :)

2010-07-12T22:06:00.003+08:00

BLACKBERRY BOLD? :) This saturday, its coming soon and i can smell the smell of a new handphone!... dont mean to be so materialistic, but my sony ericson has officially died on me.. apparently, my phone number changed all of a sudden and i dont know what happened till i remb they swapped the sim card over...i need a new phone and looking at what the bb brings, i'm quite excited to get it, hopefully i will :)

Billionare- Travie McCoy feauturing Bruno Mars
Got a catchy tune and Bruno and Travie make a great combination...

This week is going to be one heck of a week... there's test after test, everytime i think of it I feel helpless to the fact that everything's coming at me like a train at full speed...

Yesterday had the three wusses coming over to my place to stay over for the world cup finals which dramatically ended in stoppage time and spain taking home the glory of the world cup for the first time... I didn't sleep a wink and the can of red bull only helped me to pay attention during history... the rest of the lessons i was only half paying attention to.. and when i got home i collapsed on my sofa till dinner time came.... thank God today ended early :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE.. WORK BECONS... GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-07-10T23:19:00.003+08:00

Life is like a race, some run till the end because they want to, some stop halfway because they feel like it, some collapse from the sheer pressure because they haven't trained hard enough, some end up for many water breaks because they find comfort in sustinence... in life's race, it wouldn't be fair to cut corners to the end, because its the process that counts.... :)

I had a great week this week for some reason... I just did... Eventful because friends made it eventful.. memorable because everyone made it memorable.. sometimes you think of someone and thoughts flash through your mind about what happened in the past.. some things change though I yearn for them not to...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAQIN!

I know its quite late cos its 3 days past your birthday but i hoped you had a blast! :)...

This week was particularly eventful because i finally found my motivation to do the things i had to do and get on with my dismal mid year results... how i found it was not through those motivational talks or some motivational video that captivated me... it was rather surreal.. it was through this vivid dream i had of me and my friends..it was so surreal this dream, but it woke me up from what i would become if i didn't work hard enough.. it's too long a story to type it all out here but it certainly gave me a push...

I'M HAVING EXTREMELY SURREAL DREAMS A LOT LATELY.. maybe it's because my mind's working too hard..

SUPERFREAKONOMICS!... its a fantastic book i've been reading lately not entirely about econs but more about different factual things in life and trying to explain those phenomena through statistical data and stories about people... its not like any book i've read...

My phone is dying on me... rest in peace dear phone.. i cant pick up calls, answer calls, the vibration isn't working... now i'm thinking about getting a bb or a samsung galaxy s :) hopefully by next saturday.. woooo hooo

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

TO MY COUSINS

2010-07-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

My cousins departed on the friday last week... And this post is specially dedicated to them...

To kelly and kenneth..
I don't know if you'll see this
I know we don't have any parting gift for you but we have many parting memories
I'll miss you all at all the special events like fathers day, mothers day and birthdays
I'll miss the fly drowning
I'll miss all the games we play when we were young and all the stories we told each other
I'll miss how we when were young and naive and played with toys
I'll miss how much fun we had every time new year came around
So many times and memories we had even this blog post can't hold them in
I wish you two all the best in your studies and especially adapting at life in scotland... know that i'll always be an email or phone call(better not lah so expensive haha) away...

As you left from the airport, kenneth with his hoard of fans and kelly with her bunch of close friends.. i remembered all the fun we had in all the different countries.. I know I will miss you and your family.. and most importantly,i know i'll miss my cousins who i've known since I was such a young kid... when i see my grandma tear when you all left, the tears of regret.. i was looking back at and remembering all that we had... :)

ENJOY SCOTLAND COUSINS! :)

2010-07-05T21:47:00.002+08:00

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Can't fight this feeling- Glee Cast
"you're a candle on the window on a cold dark winters night...
I've forgotten what I've started fighting.. I can't fight this feeling any more" :)

Listen to the lyrics of this song, it tells a meaningful story that I feel I can relate to.... Damn I can't believe I have to miss the last episode of Glee thanks to driving...

I LOVE HOLIDAYS, I LOVE SLEEP.. Now that I get to sleep, rest and recouperate.. I feel re energized and ready to fight this battle ahead of me.. 6 weeks to prelims.. its crucial.. its a must.. its do or die...

I haven't been blogging in ages not just because I'm busy with school.. its also because world cup robs me of time at night to reflect on the time in the morning.. its intense action and once in 4 years.. but why during my a level year... its hard to resist a good match...

I've learnt a lot of life lessons in jc.. i've learnt it the hard way for most.. and I found that despite the difficulties... negativity isn't the solution to anything.. it only makes you fear the future.. if its one hard and fast rule I go by.. it's to be positive in everything.. I start to believe more in myself when i entered this jc and i think it helped... in the sermon on sunday, pastor said that christians must set an example for others to follow and we have to be the most easy people to get along among our group of friends...

School just kicked into first gear last week.. and from tomorow onwards i'll have to slog my guts out in the night classes that follow.. and i'm determined to try and study in school everyday to make it count... there's no time to loose and i'm not going to loose...

I kind of like leading songs in church.. if its a God given talent that I have, music would be one of them... I like to sing in front of the crowd and get everyone to sing along with me... i rarely feel nervous on stage because I know He's there...

YOU KNOW WHAT...
EVERY TIME I BLOG
I WILL THINK OF ALL THE FUN I HAD HANGING OUT WITH FRIENDS AND CHILLING ALONG WITH THEM ESPECIALLY LAST YEAR...
I MISS THAT THE MOST...

One more thing.. everything around me is falling apart.. first my i pod one side is malfunctioned... secondly my computer speakers went bust, now i have to use headphones.. and now my handphone, i can answer calls but i cant heard what the other person says... THIS IS TOO AMAZING...

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-06-29T23:16:00.003+08:00

Many look at the skies for divine intervention but I know you're always here in my heart... The beauty of faith..

I don't need no representative, I don't need no assurance, I don't need to see and believe.. I just need to trust...

School's finally kicked off and the busy term 3 has gone off with a bang... two days have passed and i'm stating to get back into the groove of waking up early and rushing to study and complete homework everyday... I have never loved the time to sleep so much more than these two days.. but there's so much to be done.. blamed largely on the complacent me over the june holidays.. there goes catch up time... 18 weeks to the a's if i'm counting the numbers right.. 18 weeks means 4 and a half more months till the biggest moment of my 3 years in jc... It's time to kick it up a notch.. even if it be the death of me...

The holidays were great.. but now its time to get down to business... before it's too late

It's never written in the stars.. because we were meant to be

2010-06-24T00:48:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD.. I'm back after not blogging for so many days... I've been busy... with homework? not really.. WITH THE WORLD CUP!.. with the pile of work on my table i really don't know what i'm doing trying to watch the world cup... i just don't have the motivation to get down to doing my work and revising... i really have to now.. this blog should be less eventful when i get revisions underway... the life we live is just crazy...

This week has been eventful.. with father's day just passing and we brought and our uncle to the flier... maths results... driving... and who could forget the world cup... i just don't want school to start next week.. its too quick...

FATHER'S DAY!

Poker face- Glee
Brilliant rendition of poker face... makes it sound so ballad like...
Glee for the win... can't seem to get my eyes off every episode...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE.. HOLIDAY HOMEWORK HERE I COME

2010-06-18T16:03:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES...
I just miss hanging out with friends..
I wonder when this hectic life of mine is going to end..
I look at my poly friends and sneak a little regret in my heart...
I look at our photos and wished you were there for me...
I look at the pile of work and wonder how in the world i'm going to complete all this in time...
I wonder how I get so caught up with football that i neglect everything that has to be done...
I wonder why everyone says I've got a mature mind when I can't figure what I want to do in my life
I think about the friendship we had and wish it never went awry
I look out the window and wish i was back in secondary school days
I just wish life wasn't this way

I should be doing the crazy amount of homework that's piled of the table right now but i can't seem to get myself to start... I know it takes quite a while for me to get into full gear but when it does i promise you nothing stops me... My friend once asked me "How do you get the motivation to be so good in something?"... I told him "You don't have to look for motivation, motivation finds you"

Now ironically, I can't seem to find motivation.. aimlessly wasting my time watching movies on the net... videos on youtube... surfing news feed on facebook as a form of "de-stressing"... I only know it makes things worse... I'M THE KING OF PROCRASTINATION AND WHEN PUSH COMES TO SHOVES I HOPE I KNOW WHAT TO DO...

Cheryl Cole- Parachute
WHAT? I haven't heard any of her songs before.. but damn this song is good...
"I don't need no parachute baby if i got you... You're gonna catch me, you're gonna catch if I fall, DOWWWWNN!" :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!!

2010-06-17T10:15:00.002+08:00

Photo's of the previous bowling outing! :)

Just woke up from a nice long sleep... Had a great day yesterday doing nothing much at all... besides driving and printing stuff for shariful... now i feel a little guilty cos i was supposed to clock on 6 hours of revision.. damn i guess i just can't help but slack a little...

John Mayer- Why Georgia
I tried to play this song the way John plays this but HIS SKILLS ARE TOO OFF THE CHARTS I CAN'T KEEP UP... what a talent on the guitar.. just look at the way he plays this song... mad skills...

OH AND SPAIN LOST! WHAAATT! HAHAHA

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-06-16T10:24:00.002+08:00

You're just too cute... :)

Hello world! It's raining outside right now and all i want to do is lie down on my bed and fall back into dreamland... but I can't, I've so much things to do, so many things to settle.. and when the rain comes my habit always comes back.. i like to look at the raindrops rolling off the window surface one by one and think about everything... especially you, i remb you don't like to get caught in the rain, I remb how you told lent me your umbrella when I'd have to get wet on that same bus home... I wish i could just turn back time...

I'm going to be driving in about two hours time now and if the rain doesn't stop any time soon... I'm going to be in for a torrid time i predict LOL... I finally passed my gear shifting module so thank God! :)... I don't know but me and coordination just aren't the best of friends... auto gear is giving me a lot of trouble... I'm just a slow learner when it comes to things like that...

I had a great time at the bowling dinner a few days ago on monday where we went to seoul garden to chill... I'm going to miss this cca a lot and the people i've come to know in this cca are just great people.. not for one moment have i regret knowing this bunch of bowlers... :)photos soon, i'm just too lazy to upload...

the amount of work that i have to do is maddening and the amount revision time is also making me feel that this might be one heck of a two weeks coming up.. with the world cup also here, i feel that i have to set my priorities right before i get swept away with complacency again.. i need to pace myself, if not its over...

I did a lot of studying yesterday with steph and sam who left after only a few hours... 6 hours i last counted... and that's great improvement from the zero hours everyday last week ... LOL... i'm starting to want to study now that i've taken such a long break... thank God my engines are finally moving...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-06-13T06:29:00.002+08:00

The life I'm living now is so up and down it leaves me no space to breathe.. so far? I haven't passed anything besides gp and my lousy results for econs didn't exactly help me in my self esteem... I thought I could... In this time, like what a dear friend of mine once said, you got to have a little faith in yourself and the things you do... You got to walk with a swagger though deep inside you're put down.... a little faith in the Lord...

Maybe I'm just not made for coordination... my instructor says from the looks of it, i'm a slow learner... I can't seem to get anything thats driving right, though I'm slowly getting the hang of it... looks like if you're good in daytona doesn't mean you're any good in driving a real manual car eh.. HAHAHA reality check 101

I've been enjoying my wind down time this week... But it's time to get the engine humming and all ready to go for the prelims again... it's tiring but what's got to be done has got to be done... it's crucial to know my priorities this time, it's do or die my friends...

Had NS medical on friday with joel, shariful, aaron and boon... and though we wasted our day away just doing this darn ns medical, it was great fun with this bunch of friends.. when we first went to cmpb, we were so afraid we were going to be late and eventually we reached the place which wasn't even named cmpb, it was one of buildings in the compound LOL... suprisingly we met many srjcians there doing the checkup as well... all the hype about the blood tests and how they jab you many times if they can't find your vain actually turned out to be okay... then there was the science experiments where they give you artificial nips for 5 minutes while you lie down helplessly on the bed.. AND OH YES... the IQ test... waited for 1 hour and went in for 3 hours, HOW FUN... :) the fact that I had my besties with me made time past fast

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!

I can't believe i'm posting this at 6am, i fell asleep watching argentina play nigeria... WORLD CUP FTW :)

2010-06-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

I used to be commander and chief and my pimp ship was flying high till I met that PRETTY LITTLE MISSLE she shot me out of the sky... :)

I listened to this song on the bus just now and it made a lot of sense... lyrical genius kanye west at work again.. He's the slick rick

CRAMPED AT DRIVING TODAY!... which is not cool... who asked a fool like me to play 4 hours of soccer and happen to stumble on the footworking lesson today which required heavy clutch stepping and it almost killed me... lucky at the end i got my leg back and my nerves back and i had a pretty smooth gear two switches....:)
Soccer before that with the sr people was good too... had a fun but extremely tiring time... though i only scored two goals i had a blast.. i'm feeling the after effects now, aches and pains all over... then the buffet lunch and chilling with the wusses.. ITS BEEN A GREAT DAY! :) I WISH EVERYDAY COULD BE THIS WAY...

It's going to be rest day tomorrow.. maybe heading into town for an hour to collect my op documents for the ns checkup... other than that, it's chilling at home which i cant wait to do...:) and maybe get some packing done to this messy room of mine...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :)

2010-06-07T18:33:00.003+08:00

With everything if you want to achieve something you can never think about when you're falling down, rather, you should think about when you succeed trying and how happy you'll be then... In my life i've always opted to be the optimist.. even when times are bad even when everyone thinks differently, i'll always be happily optimistic about life... in moments like these, i look up to God and with confidence tell Him I'll do it in His glory... I know at times I may fall down and struggle to come up but i know one day I will climb up...

I feel like I'm loosing my steam, like I've got no more strength to carry on.. but through all my great friends around and all the magnificent teachers... you just have to try and try again... at times i stare into space wondering what would happen if i really chose to give up, but i quickly erase that thought knowing nothing good will come out of giving up....

I appreciate what everyone's done for me and when I look at it all, I don't think I'm doing this for myself, but for those who've pinned their hopes on me...

I cancelled driving lesson today because of school and because i couldn't produce any document i decided to let that 60 bucks fly past.. damn... TOMORROW'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND I CAN'T WAIT!!! :D

:) the fun we had

WEEKENDS ARE POWERFUL

2010-06-06T13:40:00.002+08:00

I've never enjoyed any other weekend more than this weekend... school has been verging on crazy with at least two hour long lectures everyday and tutorial lessons and not forgetting driving lessons to add on to how hectic it has been.. HOW IS THIS THE HOLIDAYS, all of us must be asking ourselves.. which goes to show that when you're taking the a levels there is never a thing called the holidays till the exams end... I'm thoroughly enjoying myself through friday night and saturday, catching up on my already lack of sleep and chilling doing nothing at home.. and for the first time in a long time, i feel great just getting to do nothing but chill, playing my sisters new nintendo dsi, watching tv, sleeping in late... enjoy the simple things in life my friends... because when you don't have the time to do them only do you feel their importance...:)

I haven't got most of my results back yet, except gp which I passed thank God...I had a bad feeling about gp especially my paper 2 but thankfully despite my below expectation essay result i still manage to pass :)... chem seemed bleak by the way mr ang talked about it... maths i'm still hopeful for something good to happen... history seemed unpredictable and so is econs... so till i get my results back i'm still hoping for the best...

Enough about the mids... its time to look forward and move along...

School officially ends on tuesday because of my aptly booked medical on friday!! :D I guess this holiday won't be as fun as i imagined.. all the rushed lectures and so much to catch up on... still I won't loose faith as long as the Lord's with me... Looking at where i stand now, i will definitely be screwed if i don't study hard enough... so i better buckle up for the ride of my life cos i know this is not going to be easy at all...

I'm dreading school starting again tomorrow... But looking on the bright side i don't have to go for that dreadful keep fit program in the morning and its just two days left!!!

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-06-01T06:25:00.003+08:00

I thought I'd spend some time blogging to get this frustration off my chest... THE HOLIDAY TIMETABLE IS CRAZY!!!!... We have lectures that go on for 2 hours at least and some even for 3 hours.. tutorials that go on for 2-3 hours one shot... and school ends at 4.30 on average... how is this supposed to be good for the mind.. plus, we have morning exercises on mon wed and fri at 7am in school... 7AM... okay i've said my peace and all i want is for the holiday lessons to end soon... this is going to be one LONG week....

I went for my first driving lesson today!... It was only great fun clutching, stalling, accelerating, going one round around the circuit and being the hand over hand natural... the instructor was patient and kind in answering my questions and i had great fun being in the drivers seat.. I can't wait for the next lesson on wed now.. woooooooo driving ftw :)

I'M SUPPOSED TO GET READY FOR SCHOOL BUT I'M BLOGGING =P

5 HOURS OF CHEM CONSECUTIVE LATER, WISH ME LUCK... I JUST PRAY THAT I DON'T DIE WITH OVERDOSE OF CHEM... :/

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!! :)

2010-05-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

:) Kara? Ok lol... Those were the pictures from yesterday courtesy of shu wen's camera!

Today was great fun too :) Hanging out at the bowling alley with the church and sunday school people and having a blast!... then coming back to the house in the scorching heat and everyone playing band hero and sweating it out playing raving rabbids.. it was awesome fun to hang out like we have.. to hang out like we do.. like amos said, we rarely hang out like this ever again... though i might have lost it at today's bowling cos i bowled like a wuss, I gained knowing that I have these bunch of brothers and sisters in christ whom I knew I can count on.. PRAISE THE LORD... :)

Universal studios tomorrow!... take me back to where dreams began :) I have a feeling i'll see a lot of srjcians there...

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-05-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

I MUST ADMIT, I'M A CHINESE SONG NOOB...

Out of all the chinese songs that played today on the screen i only knew like what 4-5?.. thats 4-5/ 50 man... darn it.. I guess i really need to listen some cheena songs cos some of them have really nice tunes :)

Hahaha you all must be wondering what this idiot is typing about... and that you just wasted 10 seconds of your life reading the first 4 lines... but its all that happened today... 6 hours of karoake at serangoon gardens to celebrate bobo's and parthi's birthday... :) It was a first for me at a ktv joint jamming it to tunes and I found it though tiring on the throat extremely fun with these bunch of friends... every was having a blast singing along and doing retarded actions with the beat.. forcing parthi to sing was also fun, but the man sportingly took up the challenge and managed to sound really like will.i.am somehow.. parthi's future could be in rap.. hahaha... honestly i had a great time, singing old time boy band songs by MY FAVORITE westlife (I used to love them alot but they haven't produced any impressive tracks and albums since i was pri 6 so i dont listen to them anymore)... We laughed, we sang and we had fun... 6 hours just went by

PARTHI HAS THIS POWER PRESENT THAT WILL LAST HIM TILL THROUGH THE A'S.. ONE YEARS WORTH OF STATIONARY BROTHER.. ;)

I would update you peeps with the pictures once i get them :)

GREAT DAY

BOWLING TOMORROW!! WOOOOOHOOO :) can't wait.. My hands have been itching for this moment... it's going to be great fun tomorrow i predict... this where lanes meet zion bp church.. :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-05-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

I'M BURNT, SPENT AND TIRED.. But I had a lot of fun today :D... I haven't been playing soccer in such a long long long LONG time..and to finally step on the field to kick some ball was great... 4 hours playing soccer HOW GREAT IS THAT :)Chilling with the great bunch of friends and talking nonsense was great too... then we headed to bbq chicken at city square to talk and we had a great time comparing everything to body part sand playing truth or dare... I'M GOING TO MISS IT... damn

THE NEXT FEW DAYS ARE GOING TO BE AWESOME I CAN SMELL IT :D

I don't have much to say i'm just excited over whats to come

TILL ANOTHER DAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!
\
Avril Lavigne- Keep holding on
:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcaZkGR-nH4
I can't really post it up cos embedding's been disabled for this video but it's darn funny.. about pac man videos discussing tv :D

2010-05-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

THE EXAMS ARE OVER.. O-V-E-R!.. I've never been so glad in my life and that 1 hour for chem p1 just now flew past just because I couldn't wait for the exams to be over... thank God for His constantly guiding grace and presence in my exams :)...

HELLO BREAK, HELLO OUTINGS, HELLO GUITAR, HELLO MOVIES, HELLO WII, HELLO PSP, HELLO BOWLING... I'm coming :D WOOO

Every time and every exam I heave a sigh of relief when its over simply because the anxiety and stress you put yourself through during the exams is too great... that when you can finally come home and not worry about studies at least for a few days.. ITS GREAT :) I really am looking forward to this break.. I really need it

Just rented a few movies from video ezy just now... 3 movies for 10 bucks.. twilight- new moon, zombieland and GI Joe... I've just finished watching twilight and I've got to say that sappy love stories are not my thing no matter how intriguing it is between a human, a werewolf and a vampire.. I mean, the story just flows too slowly and if you haven't caught the first movie you wouldn't have the slighest clue what all the commotion is about.. with only a few action scenes were the buffed boy jacob turns werewolf, its totally not a show worth watching unless you're big on romance..

I just have this impulse to go ahead and shout it to the world that I've finished my exams for now.. but looking at the hectic two weeks that are going to come during the june hols I know i really need the long weekends to recoup.. with driving coming up and lessons till 4.30 everyday.. its by God's grace that hopefully i'll pull through... breaks are hard to come by this year...

The mid years have been bitter sweet.. bitter in that I still think that I've been to relaxed in studying and preparing for it that I end up trying to spot questions (which praise the Lord those that I studied for appeared)... sweet in that i think i'll most probably do better for this one as compared to the dismal results of the common test.. so every step's an improvement... i hope :)

This weeks is darn hectic and I'm LOVING it :) woooo... its not hectic full of studies, just full of full fledged enjoyment and fun :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!!!

2010-05-24T17:09:00.002+08:00

"Even though she's rolling around in the hay stack with someone else, they'll never be as good as you'll be.
You just got to wait out your turn.
She's out there learning who to contrast you against" -John Mayer-

I just happened to listen to a live rendition of one of John Mayer's live performances and it's inspirational... :)

Maths paper 2 and chem paper 1.. I want this to end but time is passing by almost too slowly.. it seems like time isn't on my side either...

Went photo-taking this weekend with the Dad's side of the family because my uncle's family's leaving for scotland soon... it was some professional photoshoot with background and poses and large eye blinding flashes... I didn't know taking photos would be so tiring but it was great fun experiencing what it would be like... :)

I have to admit that this weekend i took too much of a break... Procrastination started to creep in again at the point when i thought i've gotten rid of it... I haven't really studied much over the weekend and i pretty much regret it.. I've lost my momentum to study now and i'm doing maths questions at a super slow pace... I wish there was more time... I guess I'll have to just take it like a man and finish off this tiring long ordeal.. the exams have been tough...

To hear your soothing and comforting words are all I need.. :) Your call once it rang on my caller id, it meant the world

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-05-21T23:58:00.002+08:00

That Girl- David Choi
"I love her more than life.. More than life.."
"It must be wrong for me to say.. I don't need that girl by my side I don't that girl in my life, I don't want to talk it out or hold her when she cries"\
:)

Is it? THE EXAMS ARE OVER! :D NOT... Still two more papers left and I'm sapped dry.. you know i'll always try, I tried really hard to fight the crazy chem battle and I lost... I tried very hard to fight that history battle without much knowledge in me but though i knew that this would be a long 3 hours I wrote more than expected praise the Lord! :) I tried to study A BIT just now, but my brain's telling me to go to bed you need rest.. I think I might need to listen and go and sleep...but there's a ton of things, aside from studying that i want to do right now.. :/

Had a blast playing taboo with the Yfer's in the clubhouse just now.. WWOOOOO! We should totally do this kind of fellowship every week, it would be the coolest... Praising the Lord with songs , sharing the things we're thankful for the past week, playing taboo... It was meaningful and great fun :) and not forgetting chilling at dessert bowl... ZSES YFERS FTW!.. I know I'll always enjoy yf with these people around!!:DD

I'VE BEEN IN A HAPPY MOOD MAYBE ITS BECAUSE I SURVIVED THIS CRAZY WEEK AND LIVED TO TELL THE TALE~!... Here's the torrid routine I've been in... Exam come homes study for the next day exam come home study for the next days exams.... this routine saps the energy out of me each and every day and this week seemed to pass by 10 times slower than last week... just 1 more day people :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!

2010-05-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

We lie loudest when we lie to ourselves.
-Eric Hoffer-

It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it.
-Aristotle-

I like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me.
-Fred Allen-

IT'S GREAT HOW QUOTES CAN SPRING SURPRISES ON YOU :) Back to studying chem!

A few more papers now my dear mind, won't you continue to focus like you have...my mind is running dry on absorption rate and nothing i try can get it to absorb more.. chem is overkilling of the mind!... God's grace be with me in the exam halls tomorrow... It's going to be one heck of a fight tomorrow

I JUST DONT THINK ANY SECOND MORE WILL DO

2010-05-19T23:21:00.002+08:00

I'm here blogging instead of busy mugging for the mids just because i feel that I can't take this studying anymore!... I'm pretty much dead in the brain, try as I may nothing that's econs can get into my head right now... so here I am taking a break from it all..

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night skies are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right nooowww!"
B.o.B feat Hayley Williams- Airplanes

If I could wish I would wish that this huge obstacle in my life called the A levels be gone and we all could live nice and happy lives! :D

Only recently I've devoted myself to compiling a list of love songs worth learning and trying to learn these renditions on a guitar.. Don't get me wrong and going around spreading that I've found HER.. there's still one that I haven't let go off and find it hard to mind you... I'm just into love songs recently and plenty, new and the classics have caught my eye... It's times like this when I really wish I knew more than just my guitar... Someone, piano lessons? :D I could teach you guitar in return LOL...

I'M A MUGGER I LOVE BOOKS I LOVE ECONS I LOVE MATHS I LOVE CHEM I LOVE HISTORY!

Psyching myself up to go back into studying

TILL ANOTHER TIME GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :)

I'm no Einstein but I know a sign when I see one

2010-05-15T18:47:00.002+08:00

You know what fella's... "I'm no einstein but I know a sign when I see one".. I can see the mid years fast approaching... like a train railing straight into my path... yet I can't seem to find enough time to study, or enough focus to study... mr yew's email not long ago made quite a lot of sense, if you study and focus on studying its better than studying hard and absorbing nothing at all... the point is, time is not on my side and the mid years are what 1 and a half days away now and I can smell that this is not going to one great fight.. my initial aim was to pass every single subject but now even that quite realistic aim is slowly seeping away... now i know why everyone wants to have more than 24 hours, those fellas must either be enjoying and living their lives to the fullest or jc students studying for an exams... sometimes we think about the old days, but we just have to stop crying over expired milk and look to the challenges ahead.. I'm afraid this one is the biggest challenge I'll ever face in my life, I'm starting to find momentum and I hope if all things stay this way (ceteris paribus) I might smash my way through the a's.. I HOPE

Why my blog is nowadays so full of life is because singtel and my computer is officially happy with me again and not giving me any problems any more!!! YAY... But like you all know we're humans and I need a space to rant, so thank God my blog is back up:)...

Suddenly I feel that I'm a movie fanatic, I just feel like watching a trillion movies right now, but I've got to get my priorities straight.. If i knew whats good for me, i would not be in this point desperate for time... but still after the a's will see me trying to spam myself with movies that i've been wanting to watch either by the net or the neighbouring video ezy store which i find myself browsing through when I walk pass...

OKAY THIS IS ALL RANDOM RANTINGS WITHOUT MUCH IN MIND...

I WANT TO GET MY GUITAR STAND NOW, if I find the time

TILL ANOTHER PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

YOU KNOW WHAT, I MISS HANGING OUT WITH THIS BUNCH... TIME STOPPED FOR US DIDNT IT

Life is too much to bear, a burden only You can help me lift

2010-05-11T17:55:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD... I haven't been posting in eons and many things have gone and come in this life... recently over the past two weeks, i met up with my buddies who're now in ns lugging themselves through everyday... they've changed so much i can't recognize them anymore, but once friends always friends... chad an rohith i wish you all the best in your ns road of life, it's going to end soon i'll assure you :)

What can i say about studying and the education system i find myself in... its sapping, not just mentally with studying and all but also cca and pe which makes one physically tired as well...a balanced lifestyle is tiring to keep up and with the amount of pressure on our heads, i don't see an end to what i'm doing right now.. I'M FINALLY GETTING SOME MOMENTUM TOWARDS THE MIDS... but there's only 5 days left till that DDAY comes and its simply not enough i know... GOD I KNOW YOU'RE THERE

BOWLING NATIONAL CHAMPIONSHIPS! It ended just last week on friday with the quartets and i really am going to miss bowling to the CORE.. I remb joining bowling in j1 back in 2008 when in was just a freshie and the reason why i joined was because it was a sport and one of the most slack sports cca's and partly because my friends, marcus and chad were joining the cca too... but never did i knew i would come to fall in love with this sport so much it became part of my life... i remb the times when me marcus and boon went to e hub orchid bowl to bowl for free bowling ball for 10 games and we came back empty handed with a big hole in my pocket.. i remb getting pissed when i couldnt get into the first team of the a divs in j1 and talking to mr fong about it.. i remb going to jerry's place for a great bbq and the tiring long haul of mr kleff into the swimming pool.. i remb all that tough training coach put us through even locking us out of the alley if we're late... i remb heading to the a divs feeling really nervous but with great team mates around, you shouldn't... all the friend i made along the way be it in bowling or in the a divs... and 6th place what a great achievement sr!.. when we improve you want to close us down, this is why i think its just plain unfair... ONCE A BOWLER ALWAYS A BOWLER :)

"Now that I have to face the music it all seems to loud to bear, but if i dont face it, i may become a failure in the end.. its all about the molding process, no matter how hard it takes..." Thanks friend :)

SPA today was great.. everything i studied for came up and though i'll have to admit i made a few blockhead mistakes here and there, i hope i dont screw it up too badly.. :) thank the Lord for being with me today...

I FEEL THAT I SHOULD BE STUDYING BUT BLOGGING SEEMS TO HAVE FOUND MY FANCY AGAIN...

Dear blog, i'll try not to neglect you that often.. honestly blogging is one great way to improve your social and linguistic skills... when i compare my first post and what i'm posting now, you know i've been through the rigours of jc life and the opinions that you never knew you had after taking gp.. jc sure changed me a whole lot...

SOMETIMES LIFE THROWS THINGS THAT YOU IND HARD TO CATCH BECAUSE NOT ONLY IS IT BIGGER THAN THE PALMS OF YOUR HANDS, IT'S BIGGER THAN TWO OF YOU PUT TOGETHER... YOU'LL JUST HAVE TO TAKE THE HIT, PAINFUL AS IT IS.. AND MOVE ON.. WHAT A REALITY

Till another day people, I realise I've been posting too much videos and emotional messages.. God bless and keep on smiling.. BRING ON THE MIDS! THIS IS SPARTA!

Hello world

2010-04-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

When we say (Juice box)- AJ Rafael
"He better be treating you good treating you right... This is the part where we say we're in love and the part where we have our first kiss, but this ain't a movie and I know you can't come with me"

Sometimes in a relationship it can never be how we want it to be... Now that its so far gone and I'm still having memories of you... all i want to know is that he's treating you right...

I've been getting into the groove of studying after such a long time and I'm finally getting some work done for the mids... I'm going to give it my 110 percent all the way to the a's and like al said in her valedictorian speech, without hard work and picking yourself up when you fall, you'll never get out of what you just fell into... God please grant me with the strength...

BOWLING A DIVS ON MONDAY! Though its a holiday for us the bowlers still have to come to school for a divs, COME ON TEAM SR, TOP 5 HERE WE COME! :D... the singles are on monday and i hope all our hard work, the sweat and tears we've put into training will finally pay off.. we may be the dark horses but we'll show them who's boss on the alley... :)PLAY OUR BEST!

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Time is short just live it

2010-04-20T01:22:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD

-Beautiful Saviour- Planetshakers

I've been listening to planet shakers off you tube recently and now i can't get my ears off their songs.. their gratification to God in their lyrics and great rhythm and melody in their songs.. All for the glory of God

I THANK EVERYONE.. for being so concerned about the plight i seem to have found myself in... all the close friends of mine who smsed called and talked to me.. I'm so motivated not to let my friends down now, not to let my parents down.. especially not to let God down, He's given me so much and what have i given i return?... I now know why friends make the person I am today, because you all care...

I'm trying to fit the pieces of my life back into your jigsaw puzzle...

I pod touch!!!!! I'm really hoping it'll be mine after the mids :)

Now its all flustered random thoughts but when I look around and think about things I tend to look far beyond into the future and what might happen... what happened to us, once close friends no miles apart.. time circumstances and many other things made me loose a friend like you.. much as I have no time to even breathe I wish life wouldnt be this way...

I'm excited because the A'divs are just a week away! COME ON BOWLERS :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING... you can see i'm rattling on in no chronological order.. this is compete madness at 1 am

2010-04-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

I'm tired, tired of everything life has thrown at me in the face this year..
It's been hectic, it's been demoralizing, it's been draining and every ounce of me is fading...
I once thought i could conquer this but now I'm second guessing
I once felt life was hopeful but now I'm just slipping up
I thank you all the teachers for believing in me, especially my form teacher, its a fight of the mind body and soul between me myself and I and no one else...
If anyone is to win, it has to start with me, so dear God, please let me win this battle that I'm struggling to fight, that I'm fading away...
Let the flame that once burned strong find it's light again.. GOD WILL MAKE A WAY, I'm very sure of it

That's when i stumbled upon this song.. "Don't stop believing"- Glee cast

"Hold on to that feeling"

I've got to find what i once thought i found...
Its like hitting a wall the rate I'm going... I can't seen to go past this barrier..

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Thank you Lord for your sacrifice

2010-04-04T21:24:00.002+08:00

"Jesus Christ I think about your sacrifice you became nothing, poured out to death.. and every time, I marvel at your gift of love I'm in that place once again, I'm in that place once again... Once again I looked upon the cross where you died, I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside... Once again I thank you, once again pour out my life... THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS, MY FRIEND"

Its easter Sunday once again and this song pretty much summarizes it... The Lord came down to die on the cross for us all... How great a love than this... I had an awesome good friday and an even better sunday organising games for the children was awesome... Now i just got to settle back down to hectic school life.. just 5 weeks plus to the mids and I need to start showing some results and studying before i procrastinate my way to the A's.. PROCRASTINATION KILLS...

I know this was another unproductive weekend and every time i come to a monday feeling i've wasted away the rest of my long weekend doing NOTHING.. maybe i did a bit of work but its nothing much at all... :(

Friday with the clique at yuki yaki after intensive easter performance rehearsals were great... we ate from 7.30 to 10.30... but it was one heck of a meal... we fried ice cream talked and had fun.. I wish everyday could be like this...

I PASSED MY BTT( basic theory test)!!!!! WOOOOO! :).. it wasnt that hard to tell you the truth.. just read through the book once and you'll get through... practical lessons here i come.. :DDDD

Okay I have to go do my work now and hopefully find some kind of groove to chiong all the way till the a's... GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING PEOPLE...

No not when it comes to you and me

2010-04-01T22:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!! :D... schools been demanding and extremely tiring... i dont know what has gone to me but everytime i tell myself to study especially for the past two days, my eyes just dont let me... when i get home after dinner, its hard to think about studies because your mind is so exhausted it wants sleep and rest... i know all the motivational talks may have finally woke me up and i really have the motivation to study these days... but its been tiring, too tiring

NUS, SMU, NTU came today to give us talks about university courses and even set up booths during todays ct period and to look at all the cut off for the universities especially SMU and econs which i plan to take my path on, i find that if i dont work hard if i dont put in my 200 percent, ill not make it anywhere locally.. so for the moment after looking through all the borchures and pamphlets though my mind is stil partially in a daze on where to go, i have my eyes set on the business faculty in all the three major uni's.. with God's grace, he'll set light a path thats best for me I'm sure...

She was Mine- AJ Rafael feat Jesse Barrera
Excellent song to chill out to whenever I'm doing my work or even walking down those streets thinking about her... "No matter you go, I wont be very far cos in my head ill be right there where you are"... :)

Its a busy busy weekend... i need to make time for studying honestly... BUT I LOVE THE LONG BREAK! :D... Basic theory test for driving on saturday.. pray that i'll make it!!...

-If I didnt have friends, i just don't know where i would be now... i would barely try to imagine- :)

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-03-28T11:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder... if i'm too lazy to make a change or is the laziness forcing me to forsake the things i really want inside and do what i feel, is laziness overpowering me?... I mean the common test was a complete failure and I know it was a 100 percent my fault for not studying and being so relaxed in one of the toughest papers ive ever taken... I dont seem to find the urgency, drive and motivation to do things.. sure things are easier said than done and everytime i find myself caught in this trap... My aim is to go to the university and hopefully find a job i love and is passionate in for the rest of my life and lead a comfortable lifestyle... but right now, if i dont put the effort, nothing will come out... I know the principal has told us in the principals rally that retainees are slower learners but i bed to differ, we just dont have the inherent hardworking capabilities and procrastinate more than others... I better make a change at least for once in my life...

I cherish those j1 times, i cherish the sp times... the time when we all could take a back seat take a chill pill and still do well.. but times are different now... I know my parents would be dissapointed in me if i tell them my results... and for me telling myself that i'll never dissapoint my parents again... its saddening looking at the number of U's I have... the times have changed and the need to change whats bugging me for ages.. But i really in my innermost desire still want to hang out with the dearest friends I have and chill the day away... But i always ask myself, who am I doing this for... For God and for the parents i care about a lot...

GOD PLEASE GRANT ME WITH THE STRENGTH..

"We did not know what to make of her. In our minds we tried to pin her to a corkboard like a butterfly but the pin merely went through and away she flew."

A quote i stumbled upon on flickr that reminded me very much of you.. how you loved nature, the birds the bees and the butterflies in between... you were different, we once were different... I just hope my imagination turns to reality... won't it?

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING
-The road is long but i have to carry on in the Lord's grace and mercy-

its been too long

2010-03-23T01:41:00.003+08:00

I have got no time at all lately to post everything that happened during the march hols but I've got to see it was full of action and activities!...

YF retreat for one was great, made a lot of new friends from the morning yf and i had great fun at the retreat playing the guitar and singing till 3am with rendell yanwei and ibob... walking and wandering serangoon gardens till 12 midnight with bubbles!... playing floorball, captains ball, one legged catching in the afternoons and actually being quite good in floorball.. :D I had a great time spending time with brothers and sisters in christ and spending time with the Lord.. I have to say I've learnt quite a bit from these short few days...

Then not long after was BBQ in church on friday night! :D... we invited a few of the morning service people over for a bit of a praise and worship session and bbq which im sure polluted the ling kwang home with our excess smoke coming out from the pits... it was great fun bbq-ing with the yfers, we've known each other for so long and everytime we get together it always is great fun... (i've just got to get better at taboo!)

Then the weekends were spent with the family, going to the national meuseum on some exhibition about "The quest for Immortality", going to the singapore flyer and witnessing the not so spectecular view of Singapore at night, staying over at swissotel because my mum has a free stay... The view was fantastic from the 56th floor i tell you, you have to be there to see how breathtaking it is... and i'm partially afraid of heights so i never dare to look down at the small ant like humans below....

these are just a few of the MANY pictures we took, im just lazy to upload the rest, 6 of the best HAHAH

Common test results are almost all out and they're extremely depressing because i screwed up BIG TIME... this is my last chance to make a difference, if i dont start now i dont know when i'll ever start.. this is a huge wakeup call for me.. i've been slacking too much and its no good excuse... you'll see the change in me and i'll emerge stronger than ever... With the help of the Lord, I will..

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

Happy birthday Desmond!

2010-03-16T14:36:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD!.. had a recital last saturday at Agape and try as I may to upload the song i sang, it just always fails... I'll try again again till i get it, i thought it was a pretty well arranged medly, with much help from my guitar teacher Jobb..

We had a belated birthday celebration yesterday for Desmond.. so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND~!..

These are just a few of the photos, the rest are on FB! :D

Watched Alice in wonderland with my classmates yesterday and honestly it was dissapointing.. i expected much more of it, but i guess the whimsical world was too much for us to take it all.. the illusions and delusions behind whether it was a dream or reality made it a little bit fake... i guess johnny depp was the only worth watching point this whole movie... far from the hype i got fromt the trailer.. 3/5 stars? :)

Watching another movie with the wusses later and I can't wait.. Cop out and Dear John looks good... :D but there's stil the chem file waiting for me to finish... oh well, this holiday still is looking good..can't wait for training tomorow, yf retreat on thurs and fri, yf bbq on fri night, family outing on over the weekends.. i may be too busy over this hols but this kind of business beats boredom! :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-03-12T16:42:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES THERE ARE DAYS WHERE YOU JUST WISH TO LAZE AROUND AT HOME AND NOT THINK ABOUT ANYTHING... THESE ARE THE DAYS I LOVE...

THE CT'S ARE OOOVVEERR BOO YAH!

2010-03-11T15:53:00.003+08:00

THE CT'S AE OVER PEOPLE! :DDDDDDD.. I don't know when i've been this greatful for a holiday/ break.. this one week's gonna be a great one i'm sure.. looking forward to the yf retreat, looking forward to going out and chilling looking forward to jamming... looking forward to next weeks champions league matches.. and i know i have to start my consistent studying, no worries, studying will be on my agenda too.. this train is running full steam into the march break! WOOO!

The CT's have been pretty kind to me.. it all started off with history and me spotting origins which is the ONLY thing i've studied for the night prior to history exams... then it was econs which was pretty alright, thank God for letting me remb all those content... chemistry was pretty much stabbing in the dark, wasnt too prepared at all.. and maths today was MAD! I thought i did enough but apparently i didnt... THANK GOD FOR THE CT'S BEING OVER :D

Have a recital this saturday at agape at 1pm! I'm excited to preform the medly i prepared and hopefully ill memeorise the chords and the lyrics by tonight.. i honestly really want to start a vlog, posting songs that i love to rendition and cover and posting them on youtube like aj rafael and andrew garcia... but i guess it'll have to wait till after the a's!... i might post one up this march hols :D

I see you too often.. whenever i get home from school.. or i'm heading out to meet my friends... heading for tuition... i see you almost 2 times a week because we live so near each other... "you said there's tons of fish in the water so the waters i will test" I dont think i ever can forget you... I dont know why and I dont even know if its God's will... my heart will always skip a beat, I dont think you'll ever know...

Man i love this guitar the shape the colour and even the sound... SOON SOON SOON, if i dont spend that much money every day eh

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

GOOD JOB!

2010-03-05T23:21:00.002+08:00

SRJC hit a new record today and im proud to be part of an srjc so strong and ever rising.. the a level results today brought much tension to the school and all the emotions that ran through the school today the happiness, the sadness, the helpless sighs and the tension awaiting results echoed through the walls of the school.. and to see so many bowlers making it past 80 points onto the top scorers list really made me happy, SR BOWLING FTW!... I'm extremely happy for the friends who did well and to all my friends who didnt do that well, well dont be sad, at least you tried your best... I really miss my batch that went back to collect their results today and seeing so many friends crying and with sad looks in their eyes just breaks my heart... its really the terrible truth to realise as i did in the principals dialogue in the morning that there just 38 weeks left to the a's... the emotions and thoughts that went through my mind today thinking what it would be like next year when its my turn to take the results... i really want to do well, i really do, but talk is much easier than doing it... I can't be that procrastinator anymore...

WE NEED TO CATCH UP SOON FRIENDS!

You, I've seen you for the way you are... though i still stumble for words in your presence... you've given in to a guy who doesnt deserve you at all... i dont know if im just looking at him in the wrong light... I DONT KNOW WHY...

congrats marcus on a job well done bro! :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING
-this is going to be one tough year ahead, DEAR LORD BE WITH ME-

2010-02-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

"I'm weak its true.. Cos my heart keeps falling faster.. I've waited all my life to cross to the only thats true so i will not hide its time to try.. anything to be with you... all my life I've waited.. THIS IS TRUE" -Ryan Cabrera: True

I saw you again because we live so close.. and everytime whatever the reason whenever we meet at the intersection be it you with your brother or you alone, even though i happen to not look in your direction you would run over and give me a tap on the shoulder or call my name from across the road and ask me how i'm doing.. I know I might the most naiive man in the world.. or even let my feelings take over when I'm with you.. it never changes this feeling, where my heart skips a beat when you smile... there are so many things i want you to know that I'm too weak to say it out myself.. oh its true...

Another week of school just flew by..and all i really did remember was the impactful talk Irene Ang gave during the CT period on how even though life is down we can turn the tide just becasue we never gave up.. she saw so many setbacks happen to her all the way in her life and still came out strong because she had faith... I thought the talk really gave light into the things we can do with our lives and there's never a "deadend" because its all in your mind...

Tomorow is another day of school and I'm sort of looking forward to tomorow because mondays and fridays are probably the most slack days of the school week... and its only 1 more week to common test... please don't remind me because i've barely started.. maybe a bit of maths revision today but i'm slowly trying to psyche myself into a study mode... I just hope God's with me through another gruelling week of school...

(500)Days- AJ Rafael
started off grand then ended in ruins
thought you were the one you never knew what we were doin'
you didnt know when to stop all of your games
and you left me here, left me without any shame

so the truth came out you couldnt promise me the love that i was pouring out for you
and when you went away
couldn't get you out of my mind oh i
was broken down for you

500 days i know it wasn't the best but i won't ever forget no i won't ever forget
500 days i know it wasn't the best but i won't ever regret no i won't ever forget you

i gotta be frank-- i can't imagine me with anyone other than you
had me feelin like my dreams came true

you made me feel good
like no one else existed
like summer was here everyday of the year
now its just my wishful thinkin

so the truth came out you promised someone else the love that i was pouring out for you
when you went away
couldn't get you out of my mind oh i
was broken down for you

there is a light and it never goes out
and there is a promise and i don't mean to scream and shout
but there is a fog and it's blocking that light
gotta let you go, no use in fighting this fight

I want us to be more than 500 days.. really I do :)

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-02-23T22:21:00.004+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!:)... its been a while since i last posted before the CNY's... and here's what i can remb of it all... I had a magnificent break during the CNY's because i really needed it... Visiting relatives always brings a smile to my face, even though at times we just sit in front of the tv and do nothing but eat.. being with my relatives once a year just makes me smile, looking at my neices and nephews running around and playing with each other... how every compliment makes your head bigger even though you dont try to admit it.. new clothes, food, ang bao and most importantly the company.. I HAD A GREAT CNY
DAY 1

DAY 2

I remembered we had our first "class outing" on tuesday before school started, watching a great show called Percy Jackson and the Lightnign theif.. though there were only a few of us, 7 of us to be exact, we had a great time :)

THEN SCHOOL HAD TO COME... :( where everyone hopes and prays for friday to come and the weekends for a break.. its just that tough in jc2, at least for me... lucky it was a short week last week this week its back to reality and i'm tired of it all.. being able to cope with studies that i slowly but surely slipping out of my hands.. these are the times when faith in God plays a part.. these are the times when we have to rely on God to pull us through every long and draining day...

Dunman High friendly last saturday at Orchard country club was a great experience beign able to play on the lanes and venue where the a divs will be held.. the dry lane conditions didnt help our school bowlers at all... but we'll do better and I'll train harder, i just hope they put my into the main team...

ITS ONLY TUESDAY! ITS ONLY TUESDAY... 3 MORE LONG DAYS TO GO.. I really hope God will see me through these three long days... All this pressure and hype is leaving me breathless

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2010-02-14T01:20:00.005+08:00

Its 1am in the morning... 1.21am to be exact.. and im supposed to be sound in my bed now trying to sleep bacause i have to wake up at 7.30 for church tomorow followed by a whole day of visiting.. I'M TOO CAUGHT UP WITH THE NEW YEAR SPIRIT TO SLEEP! XDD..just ended a confrence call, a one hour conference call between the wusses... aaron, boon, shariful and parthi.. we had a great fun wishing each other and other random people we decide to add to wish happy new year too.. I laughed till i couldnt laugh anymore, what a way to start off chinese new year LOL.. :D

Whats been happening over the past week was tests tests and more tests and tons of homework to follow.. IM THANKFUL FOR THIS 5 DAYS LONG BREAK!.. Thank God for chinese new year! :D.. I need to time to settle down and take a breather and get my sights set on the common test just 3 weeks away.. but now since the new year spirit is in the air, i get to forget everything for a while... meet the relatives and cousins and have a great time! :)

Friday was celebration day in school.. we ended at around 10.30 which was great! :)went to town with the wusses and had a great time talking and chilling after so many months, it was just great.. and it was on that day that i found out that my ipod's spoilt and not my earphones, just my luck... we happened to get on blog tv!! becuase we passed by where flying dutchman was doing this programme on getting people walking on orchard road to call the peole they know and tell them, I LOVE YOU!.. its to tell everyone that we live in a too passed pace society and we should just stop and say hi... so we called shriful's friend melody and her reaction to the call was hilorious, what a once in a lifetime experience LOL... :D

Today i had a hard time packing my messy room and only half the work is done.. i dont think i'll be able to pack in time before cny but i guess it looks neat and tidy enough for visitors.. then it was reunion dinner and it was great to sit with the family talk with the cousins and eat steamboat.. the warmth and happiness family brings is simply priceless... then the cousins, my siblings and i went to play pictionary and it was too fun to be true, shouting out random names, having a good laugh...

then we went to the nursery to get plants on a last minute offer to brighten up our home and it was tough work carrying the bouganvillas, the daisies and the kamkuats but the scene was extremely nice everyone was scrambling in a mad rush of offers and people to get the best flowers for themselves...

HERE'S WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY AND BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR...
GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :D

you

2010-02-08T21:32:00.004+08:00

You're like the relightable candle, a flame that never extinguishes in my heart...
No matter how much time has passed you're like a memory that never fades...
Sometimes I wonder how I'm still able to pass everyday comprehending this fact...
Today got me thinking about you again, only you will know why...
I still thought we could be something, but I guess its just not God's will...
I shouldnt dwell on the unhappy past but this past isnt unhappy at all..
Its brings back so many fond memories I'll always hold dear...
Sometimes I stare into space and just wonder...
Its a habit... An old habit...

I remember you liked this picture a lot... flowers and clouds your favourite things in the world

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING ESP YOU

2010-02-07T21:51:00.002+08:00

Reunion dinner yesterday was a bast!!!.... My mum's side of the family came over for an early reunion dinner... the atmosphere was great and steamboat always is great ;)... looking at little sophie's reaction when her parents ask her to smile or when auntie hazel talks to her on skype and how she's looking on curiously at the screen in front of her makes me smile.. this small girl is a climber, she climbed the steps up and down more than 10 times and still wanted to even after her parents wanted her to go home cos its her bedtime... little kids sometimes can bring a smile to your face just because they're so innocent and happy with what they have... she was the highlight of the reunion dinner giving everyone that ear to ear grin and that high 5... :D had a great time yesterday

Shopping this afternoon was great too! finally got all things i needed for the new year.. that's what i love about chinese new year, you get new clothes and new shoes :D and the company of your family especially the extended family you haven't seen for ages is heartwarming too.. :D I want chinese new year to come faster!

This weekend gave me a well needed rest from the busy routine of jc life.. now all is go to school come back do my work and go to bed.. maybe the occasional 2 days when i get to go for cca... the rest of the week is just jam packed with studying and work.. and its only been what 1 month... I need to keep having faith in myself and in what i do and hopefully God will see me through..

Today's sermon saw pastor talking about counterfeit christianity and how we routine rituals wont strengthen your faith if you don't believe in God.... I just think pastor yap brings about another dimension of christianity everytime he stands on that podium and speaks his sermon... God was there today

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE... IVE GOT LOTS OF WORK TO DO.. GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING! :D
p.s- i cant find my card reader now cos my rooms in too much of a mess after the paint job... ill upload the photos of reuninon dinner when i get the card reader!:D

2010-02-05T23:01:00.003+08:00

TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS GOING INTO AMY TOMOROW AFTERNOON MORNING OR EVENING ALL THE BEST!!! :D... I don't know but it seems as if everyone i know is heading into tekong tomorow... its something i definitely wont be looking forward to next year...

Schools been a blur recently... mostly been missing lessons because I'm the games facil of the amazing race, leap frog station and also the captains ball station during the finale... these few days being the games facil has been a blast.. its a good feeling to be able to command cheers when you want them.. and its a good feeling to be able to see the enthusiastic look on the freshemen's faces when they played the game... and its also great to have magnificent partners in crime manning leapfrog,nina and yawonn, i think we had a great time getting burnt in the sun and catching flying a4 papers :D... i didnt get to bust my voice like i hoped to this year but i didnt regret being a games facil at all... it reminded me of the times when I was a j1, the times when i had to be the most enthusiastic in a quiet class.. :D those were the days man...

The finale was great though the sun was killer.. on thursday the j1's had a mass picnic on the lush green field in the merciless sun... me, nevin and felicia had the honour of being games facil for the finale... we had fun playing a little bit of basketball with netball balls and getting burnt under that powerpack sun... looking a the j1's dance the new college dance and through it all PEGASUS winning orientation 2010 this year made the day even better :D... we've made history and i dont know if its fate but i've never left pegasus all through my jc life and to see pegasus win made me happy, but regretful that i wasnt part of the OGL team that led pegasus to victory... BAIK PEGASUS! :D

At the end of this week, ive missed many lessons and pretty much enjoyed every moment being part of this great orientation that saw me making many new friends and also getting burnt a new shade of auburn brown in the process... IT WAS WORTH IT :D I needed a break

I still can't get enough of the orientation spirit because I want it to always be that way.. sad to say, I still havent comprehended the fact that this j2 life ahead's going to be tough...

Its febuary already and time has sped by so fast i didnt even notice the year starting... i cant wait for the chinese new year because school life is weighing all of us down i can tell.. I'm still in a dilemma thinking whether to go for college day auditions or not..

I'LL ALWAYS REMB THE ORIENTATION TIMES 1S26 09 AND 1S18 08 :D

2010-01-30T21:40:00.003+08:00

hello world! :D tuition today was great!I think i might have the best tuition teacher there is, whatever topic the lecturer seems to take ages to teach he can teach us in one lesson, baik mr ng... tuition class has'nt been a drag mainly because of the great people in the class... everyone has been a joy to get to know... then it was yf after that and i have to say first time in the morning yf and the first impressions i got of them was that they are a warm and friendly bunch of people... i think merging yf's wouldnt be such a problem since they're such a welcoming bunch.. :D though i was reluctant at first because most of them were strangers to me.. lets just hope and pray that the Lord works in whatever way He thinks is best for both yf's

SLEEP!!!! I had a great 11 hours worth of sleep today and i feel really good... its been so long since i had more than 7 hours of sleep and this what exactly what i neede to recharge my tired self.. I'm someone who's cherishes sleep a lot, parting with sleep over the tiring weekdays is hard man...

MANUTD VS ARSENAL TOMOROW! What a match! Its bound to be a titanic clash... :D

Looking back at the photos of chiangmai and i really miss the kids back in that village on the outskirts of bustling chiangmai... the times when we got cooked in an artificial bbq seat.. the times when sam was king.. the times when jm braved the cold winds for food.. the times when we played checkers with big rocks and mini rocks and elder wee always won.. the times when we played soccer in that open field.. the times when the deacon rammed me with the trolley in the shopping centre... I MISS CHIANGMAI.. I MISS THE CHRISTIAN HOME OF LOVE..

2010-01-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

Freshies all coming in for orientation today reminds me of the past... 2 years ago when we were all just new to this school and this thought of jc life... I miss those innocent times when all we could think about was getting to meet new people and learning about what we had to look forward to in the future... in 2008 we were like them wandering around the school not sure who to say hi to or how.. we're all the orientation veterans, going through 2 years of orientation LOL... thinking back at those nice memories of the 2 years in college it sure went by darn fast and now we're all in j2 struggling to keep up with the pace of work now... I've got to admit looking at the j1's i find some childish and immature, but i've got to remember that i was like that in the past.. coming to a jc really changed the way i think and look at life, the experience is constantly making me more objective about things, making me more responsible.. :)

Welcome to JC life J1's!

Everything happened these past two years that have'nt happened to me in my entire life... experiencing love like I haven't had before... improving in my social skills which i barely had coming from 10 years in a guys school especially towards girls... overcoming the shyness i had in the past... finding a new found talent... learning new subjects.. finding new found friends... friendly teachers everywhere in college which was hard to find back in montfort...facing challenges of sorts... these two years were probably the most fufilling two years i've ever had in my life... and for the year to come I'm sure there's more to learn...(though im not looking forward to all the stress of the a's :/- guess everything comes with a price tag at the end)

TO ALL THOSE OF MY FRIENDS ENLISTING IN FEB :D ALL THE BEST!

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE, GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!

2010-01-27T23:07:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to be doing my maths homework now... definite intrgrals is just too hard, i need to give my tired mind a rest... its school for the j1's tomorow and whoever's coming over to our school you all will love it im sure... :D my room is in complete shambles right now because the painting crew came over to my house today coat the whole house in white before the MELON colour comes in to brighten the walls of my room.. I've always thought yellow was awarm endearing and creative colour...this yellow is a nice yellow though not some shiny off the top yellow, the warm sunset kind of yellow... :) can't wait till the paint's up over the next few days... and i'll just have to bear with a messy room.. there's a cost and benefit to everything isnt there... I'm typing this in the comfort of the study corner in my house becuase my room is too messy to even attempt studying there...

Its been a while since our band got together to jam and i miss those old times when we rocked on a tune almost everyday and had bucketloads of fun... :D I know all of you are busy with living your life as a student and so am I, but we should meet up every weekend to jam again man... I still remninice that first gig where we all were so nervous practising it over time and time again, being so much of a success that people wanted encores... GUYS, SAINTS REDEMPTION FTW! :D

BACK TO WORK BACK TO WORK

GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING PEOPLE!

2010-01-25T22:55:00.002+08:00

Don't stop believing- Glee
"Don't stop believing hold on to that feeling! streetlight people going on!"
This awesome musical series on starworld which debut last week. I like the theme song of this show, no matter where you are or what you're going through you just got to believe in yourself. :D

Will someone save me please? The workload is piling up and im suffocating under the pressure struggling to thread water... God with your soveriegn power and strength, I trust in You

2010-01-23T22:53:00.002+08:00

Everyone has a talent on their own to share to the world... God never leaves anyone behind.. He gives each and everyone a talent like the parable in the Bible its how you use it and invest in that talent that makes miracles happen or even change the way people around you live...

It's funny how now I've gotten into JC life i'll reminise on secondary school life and think how much easier it was.. or when you're i secondary school you just wish you were back in primary school.. its just a hypothetical fantasy that makes us want to hate reality because we've lived easier lives in the past... but life never gets any easier every time you get older doesnt it...

AJ RAFEAL- Disney Medly
Sometimes Disney songs are extremely motivational... some might think its kiddy and pointless but honestly they impart great lessons to us, the melodies are great too.. i think he just did all the greatest disney songs in 5 mins.. brilliant! :D

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!!
Gotta get down to work now, im changed for the better, i hope :)

For in Him everything is possible

2010-01-22T23:07:00.003+08:00

Something happened today that made me pause look up to the Lord and smiling in my thoughts because I knew He was there.. Training today and it was the last rolloffs, otherwise known as selections for the A divs for the bowling team... I didnt play to my full potential on wednesday the last training and I only had 2 hours and 2 games to prove that I was good enough for the team... I remembered saying a silent prayer to Lord telling Him that it was all His and that this was all never... the first game to me was pretty flimsy at times but towards the end of the last few frames i sort of got into the flow, eventually hitting 150... then the second game i used all my focus concentration and will power to hit 219, five strikes in a row and only one open frame!!! :D.. never had i been so happy in my life!..I could see everyone peeking over their shoulder to see what i'd done and the astonished looks on their faces and coach's high five made me so ecstatic.. i've never hit past 200 before and to peak at such a critical moment made me think... GOD ALWAYS CARES! THANK YOU DEAR LORD!

I dont know how, why or what came over me.. i just focused too much that after training, all the energy was zapped from me and i could only second guess what happened.. like in the book i recently read "Blink", its a moment in a time of desperation where everything seems to slow down and you can muster all strenght and push away all distractions for this one goal... PRAISE THE LORD!

I LOVE BOWLING :D

Looking like a desheveled mess

2010-01-21T23:15:00.002+08:00

If you were to look at my life through a glass ball, it would look like a total and utter mess... my papers are everywhere in my room.. books all over the floor.. guitar in one corner and bedsheets in a mess... im just not a very organised person i must say.. though i dont like my life to be in such a mess im just too lazy to do anything about it.. LIFE'S GETTING WAAAAYYY TOUGH... tutorials, holiday work, tests and ct's... no way...

I've been getting much inspiration to study and do my work from my study corner in my house.. gone are the days when i study in my room and feel like sleeping because of my comfy bed... or my laptop just next to me when i study... I HOPE... That environment's pretty cosy.. except for the occasional moments when my brother and sister want to play the wii... life is complicated right now, extremely complicated...

2009 was a happening year, going out so much and hanging out most of the times.. I'm not expecting such enjoyment in the year to come... =(... where are my 3 hour breaks?!.. I may be naiive to want the past, but its just getting to me that i shouldnt have taken those chilling sessions for granted...

TILL ANOTHER DAY PEOPLE! GOD BLESS AND KEEP ON SMILING!